“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This you can hardly escape, for it is the means by which you exist physically. This means that your positive and healthy attitudes are physically manifest, as well as your unhealthy or negative attitudes. It is almost impossible for you to weed out all negative attitudes, for by these you understand the difference between positive and negative. And by seeing physically the results of your inner activity, you better understand the nature of inner activity itself.

You can of course improve to a much higher degree than you believe possible. It is natural that at a point such as this, Ruburt’s activities should show in great contrasts. He is not upset basically (Jane got up from her rocker and walked about the room as she spoke, looking for her cigarettes) believe it or not, with the delay in his book publication, though this is the conscious rationalization.

Subconsciously he exaggerates the dangers that will beset him as a result of the publication, and the actual facts will be a relief. He is in many ways extremely individualistic. He fights for what he believes in, but he also has strong docile tendencies, which are usually rather effectively controlled. These rise up, you see however, in direct proportion to the degree of his independent accomplishments, so that he then fears the accumulated results, social results, of what he has done. It is therefore fairly natural that when this accomplishment is being exteriorized he would become frightened of the opinion of his brethren. These are two faces of the same coin.

(“A small circular object with something on top of it, perhaps like a stem.” See the tracings on page 309. The postmark on the back of the object is of course small and circular. The small triangular design mentioned earlier is just above the postmark, to the right, and is of a line, or stemlike, design. The triangular design does not quite touch the postmark, but the two words just beneath it, Natural Color, do run into the postmark, uniting the two designs.