“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You can of course improve to a much higher degree than you believe possible. It is natural that at a point such as this, Ruburt’s activities should show in great contrasts. He is not upset basically (Jane got up from her rocker and walked about the room as she spoke, looking for her cigarettes) believe it or not, with the delay in his book publication, though this is the conscious rationalization.

(Laugh.) He is concerned, you see, over the publication of his book, period. He is concerned simply because these strong inner efforts will now become exteriorized to some extent. This is the point that bothers him.

Subconsciously he exaggerates the dangers that will beset him as a result of the publication, and the actual facts will be a relief. He is in many ways extremely individualistic. He fights for what he believes in, but he also has strong docile tendencies, which are usually rather effectively controlled. These rise up, you see however, in direct proportion to the degree of his independent accomplishments, so that he then fears the accumulated results, social results, of what he has done. It is therefore fairly natural that when this accomplishment is being exteriorized he would become frightened of the opinion of his brethren. These are two faces of the same coin.

A business representative is a good idea, for his relationships will be tinged otherwise with these difficulties. You have more to gain than to lose by any visit from Ruburt’s aunt.

He has himself built up psychic energies that allow this to be done. The delays themselves are normal ones, indeed a part of the trade. Were he better known he would be informed of them, or if he lived nearby for example. It is his reactions rather than the delays which are important.

(“Grass.” We don’t know. Grass of course is implied through the object in many ways: Campgrounds for one; also, before leaving for Maine Leonard had his new tent set up on the grass in the backyard of the apartment house for several days, checking it out. He lives in the apartment across the hall from us, on the second floor.

(“A turnabout or change of mind or plan.” We speculate: Before leaving for Maine with his girl, Leonard talked often to us of marriage to her. Since his return he has not mentioned the subject, and as far as we know has not seen the girl. I wanted to ask Seth more about turnabout.

We will close our session. Had Ruburt been at his best, the results would have been better. As it is, we progress.