“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

You can of course improve to a much higher degree than you believe possible. It is natural that at a point such as this, Ruburt’s activities should show in great contrasts. He is not upset basically (Jane got up from her rocker and walked about the room as she spoke, looking for her cigarettes) believe it or not, with the delay in his book publication, though this is the conscious rationalization.

(Laugh.) He is concerned, you see, over the publication of his book, period. He is concerned simply because these strong inner efforts will now become exteriorized to some extent. This is the point that bothers him.

Subconsciously he exaggerates the dangers that will beset him as a result of the publication, and the actual facts will be a relief. He is in many ways extremely individualistic. He fights for what he believes in, but he also has strong docile tendencies, which are usually rather effectively controlled. These rise up, you see however, in direct proportion to the degree of his independent accomplishments, so that he then fears the accumulated results, social results, of what he has done. It is therefore fairly natural that when this accomplishment is being exteriorized he would become frightened of the opinion of his brethren. These are two faces of the same coin.

The delay bothers him simply because he is in suspense of the imagined rebuffs. The facts will prove otherwise, and he will be able to relax.

He has himself built up psychic energies that allow this to be done. The delays themselves are normal ones, indeed a part of the trade. Were he better known he would be informed of them, or if he lived nearby for example. It is his reactions rather than the delays which are important.

There will be a rather sudden change of fortune, of which Ruburt is well aware. It is not immediate, but it is inevitable with the publication of the book, and he fears having money, even though he wants it.

He is indeed being stiff-necked about the affair. I can help him, and you, simply because you have earned such aid by your own efforts. I could not give it to you otherwise, for you would be unable to accept it. You will mark my words, these words, well, in the future.

Now. Your projection attempts, Joseph, have been most successful, though you are not consciously aware of them as yet. Ruburt did well today. He saw, in part, a future dwelling which you will both temporarily inhabit. You were within this system in your projection dream. You will shortly, I believe, allow yourself more freedom as far as conscious levitation within a projection.

(Another valid connection is that Leonard mailed the card to us from the state of Maine, where he was vacationing on a camping trip; implying woods in the state parks where he did stay, as we later learned.

(“Grass.” We don’t know. Grass of course is implied through the object in many ways: Campgrounds for one; also, before leaving for Maine Leonard had his new tent set up on the grass in the backyard of the apartment house for several days, checking it out. He lives in the apartment across the hall from us, on the second floor.

(“A turnabout or change of mind or plan.” We speculate: Before leaving for Maine with his girl, Leonard talked often to us of marriage to her. Since his return he has not mentioned the subject, and as far as we know has not seen the girl. I wanted to ask Seth more about turnabout.

(The mention of a dress is interesting, implying a female—and a female did accompany Leonard to Maine, from where he mailed us the object. We do not know whether Leonard’s girl had a red dress with her on the trip.

(Note on August 14. Jane and I talked with Leonard today, Sunday, and learned that he appears to have put off marriage to the girl in question—see Turnabout—because of her “attitude about money.” It seems he thinks she is somewhat overbearing regarding the subject, since her parents are wealthy. Leonard made the remark, “I don’t think I’ll ever get married,” etc.)