“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane now felt much better. She had received a proof of the dust jacket for her ESP book today, and both of us liked it very much. Her eyes began to open almost as soon as the session began, and she was smoking. Her pace was good.)

Now, I am glad to see that our friend Ruburt is again spry, good-natured, and himself again.

I knew that the book would be returned shortly, and this is the reason that I gave you this reassurance. In some other instances concerning the same kind of matters, some distortions did occur. These were not basically distorted passages, only partially so. I believe two poetry books will sell. One is the psychological book. Now, this is undistorted, and if this does not materialize, than I am wrong, not Ruburt, for once. Or probabilities enter in. Obviously Ruburt must send the books out, for example.

This has to do with the attack made on Ruburt by your domestic cat. Several issues are involved: Ruburt’s own mood at the time, for one thing. Now. The cat senses both of your moods immediately. It is psychically very close to you both. Being a house cat, it is closed in with you. As a rule you both radiate strong constructive energy. For a short period of time, Ruburt turned his creative energy, as he knows, I believe, inward rather than outward, knotted it up, misdirected it, did not focus it properly, and turned it into destructive energy.

Now all energy you see is creative energy, and constructive. When it is not properly used it backs up so to speak, and explodes or erupts in what seems to be a destructive manner. This is what happened, to some degree.

Now. Ruburt would not turn any destructive energy loose upon you, my dear friend, for he loves you too deeply. He is too mature now to turn such destructive energy inward in a strong manner, against his own organism. He would not willfully turn such energy loose even upon an animal.

Now, the other smaller episodes involving Ruburt and the cat alone have always occurred during the same process, only when lesser emotional crises were involved. You were quite right in saying that Ruburt fears violence. This is one of the keynotes of his personality, and rather obviously this has to do with his early life and his mother.

The child took all this as the punishment for violence. The mother now could no longer be violent in act. Not only that, but she was helpless to resist violence. This made the child hold back the most natural of aggressive feelings. In most cases the child can slap the parent. It may be slapped back, but it knows the slap will not really kill the parent. It is pretend.

(Break at 9:32. Jane was as well dissociated, she said, as she has ever been: “He had me so that I was more him than me… Now, how did he do that?” She could have been talking about a stranger, she continued, yet knew what she was saying and that she talked about herself.

Now. It has always been extremely difficult for him to defend himself physically. As a child he simply would not do so, and to make matters worse the mother taunted him for being a coward.

Now symbolically any attack upon Ruburt becomes an attack by the parent, against which the child in Ruburt dares not retaliate. Flight becomes the only answer, the only sure solution, as flight from the parent was the only solution, for the parent could not run after.

He does not see his mother because he imagines subconsciously that he is protecting her from his own violence against her, lest after all these years it might erupt. Now this is ridiculous. This restrained violence has been excellently used for creative purposes.

The child therefore until its teens dared not be anything but docile. The personality was a strong one however, and the rebellion found no outlet except for creativity. Now the present personality suffers pangs of remorse over the slightest imagined wrong it may do to another.

Now I suggest your break.

Now. We will give our Instream material this evening. However while the conditions are right I will continue. There are some issues that should be made clear. (Smile.)

Now you become, Joseph, the voice calling Ruburt a coward, you see. I am speaking of course from the viewpoint of Ruburt’s subconscious.

You are also angry at Ruburt’s docility because it reminds you of your father’s lack of aggression in his business dealings. When all this is out in the open as it is now, you will find that both of you can deal much more effectively with the outside business world, and you will not be hampered as you both have been.

Now give us a moment please for our Instream material.

Close by him now a small box with a miscellany of objects. (Pause at 10:35.) Perhaps the box of walnut, or there is a walnut connection here.

If you read this material carefully it can benefit you more than either of you now realize. You are indeed both improving. However since the conditions were right this evening, this was the time to give you this material.

With what you both know now you should work out an excellent balance, you see, in your business dealings, in the same way that you have worked out an excellent balance in your creative and personal lives.

Now these emotional confessions of Ruburt’s annoy you considerably. They are not necessary. However your annoyance can be tempered with somewhat more understanding, and this in itself will tend to minimize their occurrence. When he indulges in this sort of thing he is feeling rebellious, you see, and this is a result of the built-up aggressive feelings of which I have been speaking.

Now I will leave you both, and I hope you will see that I have done you both a service, for this is my intention. The storm with Ruburt has passed, and you have both learned much because of it. It is a minor storm indeed, compared to what would have occurred some years earlier. He does not move furniture as erratically as he did, and is learning despite this to use his energies constructively.

You will both be pleased with the book itself, and with its response. (Eyes wide open and very dark.)Now. This is not a distortion: The book will quite literally change your circumstances for the better, and lead into areas with which you are not now acquainted.

Now. I am doing this for you: I have the impression of a six in regard to the nonphysical self book. Now this is not six years. I do not know however whether it is six weeks you see, or six months. I cannot cut it that fine, for various reasons.