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So Edward and this Negro owner of the gallery became entwined in Ruburt’s mind. He knew that it would be quite an occasion for this young man to visit informally, so to speak, with the mayor, though he would vehemently deny it; and yet Ruburt did not want the man in the house, therefore denying him such a privilege at least in thought.

Mark, in attempting to help this other young man, may indeed end up helping himself, for it will turn him outward. But the situation also has other dangers. Because of Mark’s background, subconsciously he fears Negroes; and the fear is so great, unfortunately, that it becomes a fascination. He is repelled and fascinated at the same time.

There is no point where the child ceases and the man begins, and no point where the young man ceases and the old man begins. These are states happening simultaneously, but perceived in slow motion within your system. Not only are they perceived in slow motion, but they are perceived along one line of focus only. The focus is indeed intense, but so limited in scope that it is relatively impossible for you to keep your attention upon the self except in the most inconsistent and fleeting of ways.