“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(For the envelope test tonight I used my appointment card for my visit to the dentist earlier this month. As Jane did last time she visited Dr. Colucci in May 1965, I put myself in a trance state as an experiment, and was very comfortable. I also used Jane’s appointment card of May 5,1965 as the test object for the 15th envelope test in the 199th session. I picked the card for tonight’s session because I thought it would be loaded with strong emotional charges of a personal nature, whereas the identification card used in the last test belonged to a person almost unknown to Jane and me.

This is highly amusing, for he did not want to have a chair available for the owner of the second gallery. He did not want him in the house. However he felt quite guilty over this, for the man is a Negro, and he feared that his dislike would be taken as discrimination. To prove to himself that this indeed was not the case, he began a nervous, frenzied and altogether desperate attempt to make certain that enough chairs were available.

He was quite correct in assuming as he did that his upset had little to do with a lack of chairs, since he knew perfectly well that a sufficiency was available. Now, for another piece to our puzzle. The mayor is also to be present upon this occasion, and Ruburt thought subconsciously how pleased her friend, Edward Briscoe, would be in his simple way—in the old days—to be present, and how impressed he would be with the mayor.

So Edward and this Negro owner of the gallery became entwined in Ruburt’s mind. He knew that it would be quite an occasion for this young man to visit informally, so to speak, with the mayor, though he would vehemently deny it; and yet Ruburt did not want the man in the house, therefore denying him such a privilege at least in thought.

I would prefer when possible, and without putting too much of a strain upon you both, that you discuss fairly neutral situations in our breaks, and avoid discussions with such emotional overtones.

(“A filling station.” We thought there might be a connection here in that our car ran out of gas on the road to the Gallaghers; even so, this data would be too far removed from the test object.

The June event did refer to Ruburt’s swollen gums, which were very painful. He feared most strongly that he would have to visit Colucci, and went to the doctor rather than see the dentist—although Colucci was out in the yard, and Ruburt saw him, as he will now remember.

(As soon as the session ended Jane said she did indeed remember seeing Dr. Colucci as soon as Seth mentioned that she would. Dr. Colucci’s office is but four doors down the street from the M.D. she visited. Seth was quite amused in giving this information.)