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I have a few rather humorous preliminary remarks to make, concerning Ruburt’s recent reactions.

The reactions are beautiful examples. First of all Ruburt was worried, somewhat, concerning your own reactions when you found that you now had a new engagement for Friday evening, after already planning to cancel a previous one, in order to have some free time for yourself, and he felt to blame since he had already made a commitment to Mark—rather unwillingly, by the way. But it will harm him in no way to help Mark in his endeavor.

Next, he discovered that another gentleman had also been invited, the owner of another gallery, and a man whom Ruburt quite actively dislikes. Following this, reacting rather typically as a woman, he discovered that he did not believe enough good chairs were available.

He was very fond as a child of Edward Briscoe, who was also Negro. Edward was poor and the victim of circumstances. He helped out in Ruburt’s household, therefore Ruburt feels that he should be extremely pleasant and helpful to any Negro, for this other boy’s sake. And so he felt extremely guilty because he did not welcome the thought of this other Negro into his house.

He was quite correct in assuming as he did that his upset had little to do with a lack of chairs, since he knew perfectly well that a sufficiency was available. Now, for another piece to our puzzle. The mayor is also to be present upon this occasion, and Ruburt thought subconsciously how pleased her friend, Edward Briscoe, would be in his simple way—in the old days—to be present, and how impressed he would be with the mayor.

So Edward and this Negro owner of the gallery became entwined in Ruburt’s mind. He knew that it would be quite an occasion for this young man to visit informally, so to speak, with the mayor, though he would vehemently deny it; and yet Ruburt did not want the man in the house, therefore denying him such a privilege at least in thought.

I decided to mention this since he is at the point now—I am speaking of Ruburt—when he will not accept the superficial reasons given by the ego for many reactions, but seeks to discover deeper causes. There was also some other problem here, in that Ruburt feels, as you do, and quite rightly, that Mark is in over his head, psychologically speaking.

Madison Avenue. A trip. A letter or note. (Ruburt thinks of Frederick Fell, in parenthesis.)

(“Madison Avenue. A trip. A letter or note. [Ruburt thinks of Frederick Fell, in parenthesis.]” We agreed this data probably referred to Jane’s publisher in New York City.

The June event did refer to Ruburt’s swollen gums, which were very painful. He feared most strongly that he would have to visit Colucci, and went to the doctor rather than see the dentist—although Colucci was out in the yard, and Ruburt saw him, as he will now remember.

The gas station association, while not particularly helpful for your purposes, was in some ways legitimate. The other car did refer to the dentist’s difficulty in making the hill, as he told you at your visit. The gasoline station was Ruburt’s personal association derived from this, subconsciously.

The note referred to the appointment card. This led Ruburt to think of Fell however, and a trip.

The letter to the older individual referred to Ruburt’s writing to Dr. Instream about your trance, induced during your Colucci appointment.

Madison Avenue simply means New York City to Ruburt, and was connected to his Fell associations, which were wrong.

Now, they were wrong, but there was a connection here, in that Mr. Fell had recently had throat difficulties. Ruburt picked up the connection with the mouth, you see.