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Next, he discovered that another gentleman had also been invited, the owner of another gallery, and a man whom Ruburt quite actively dislikes. Following this, reacting rather typically as a woman, he discovered that he did not believe enough good chairs were available.

This is highly amusing, for he did not want to have a chair available for the owner of the second gallery. He did not want him in the house. However he felt quite guilty over this, for the man is a Negro, and he feared that his dislike would be taken as discrimination. To prove to himself that this indeed was not the case, he began a nervous, frenzied and altogether desperate attempt to make certain that enough chairs were available.

So Edward and this Negro owner of the gallery became entwined in Ruburt’s mind. He knew that it would be quite an occasion for this young man to visit informally, so to speak, with the mayor, though he would vehemently deny it; and yet Ruburt did not want the man in the house, therefore denying him such a privilege at least in thought.

Mark, in attempting to help this other young man, may indeed end up helping himself, for it will turn him outward. But the situation also has other dangers. Because of Mark’s background, subconsciously he fears Negroes; and the fear is so great, unfortunately, that it becomes a fascination. He is repelled and fascinated at the same time.

Let us get back to time. Now. The idea is current in academic psychologicalcircles that the child exists psychologically intact in the man, that the man contains within him the psychological replica of the child that was.

Such is not exactly the case. The child exists within the man, yes, but he is not the same child. The memories that he thinks are the child’s memories are not memories of a particular event that happened to the child. That is, they do not contain a precise picture of any particular incident that occurred. Each incident is recreated when the memory of it arises, but the memory is changed with each recreation, and subtly changed.

There is no point where the child ceases and the man begins, and no point where the young man ceases and the old man begins. These are states happening simultaneously, but perceived in slow motion within your system. Not only are they perceived in slow motion, but they are perceived along one line of focus only. The focus is indeed intense, but so limited in scope that it is relatively impossible for you to keep your attention upon the self except in the most inconsistent and fleeting of ways.

A connection with a man as close to him as a brother, so to speak, with sandy hair, who is somehow connected with the object. (Pause of 50 seconds.) The object also had to do with an understanding that was reached between the owner and another man.