“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Then Bill went ahead, his body curled up into a ball, much like a fetal position. I saw him coast over the edge of the fall. I followed, holding my breath, and felt no shock or fear especially. It was very pleasant. I went deep down into the water at the base of the falls. I let myself float along, knowing that if I held my breath I would rise to the surface. At the same time I somehow knew there was a large underground rock ahead in the stream. It was like a pillar or barrier, dark and rough, reaching up high toward the surface. Still under water, I opened my eyes in plenty of time to see it ahead, and avoided hurting myself against its rough surface.

You lose advantage, Joseph, from your recorder. You lose the advantage of your recorder. In sessions such as these it would be most handy for you.

You then project this, thinking that it would happen to your brother first. So he goes under first, and you follow. You come to the surface because you realize that you would never in actuality let that kind of a situation keep you under for long. You do not see your brother because you are not so sure that such a condition could not keep him under indefinitely.

(My account of the dream doesn’t mention my actually coming to the surface of the water, but does deal with my holding my breath so that I will automatically rise to the surface; I had no doubt in the dream that I would do so. Nor did I see Dick again after we went over the falls. Seth is correct here.)

The second dream projected the fears of the first, anticipating what you were afraid would happen in the future.

You would both go under. You thought you could come out all right, but you were not certain of your brother.

To some extent also the water symbol of the previous dream represented your mother’s womb, and was a connection to the penis symbol of the next dream. Now. The execution, which you feared, was a symbol for the death of many hopes, both financial hopes and artistic ones. For you would have to get further work, you feared, to help your parents. And to you this would represent a type of execution.

It was to be painless simply because your father did not mean in the dream to hurt you on purpose. But he would do it nevertheless, so you felt. The puzzlement is obvious. You did not see how he could do this to you.

In the earlier dreams you were certain of your capacity to survive the situation which you feared. In this dream you faced the possibility that you would not survive so easily. Ruburt is in this episode because now you worry about the effect of your own reaction upon his condition in general.

Also, you are not at all certain in the dream that you would not prefer him to find outside employment, rather than increase your own work load, if a situation arose in which money was needed for your parents. Because your parents rather than his were involved you felt sadness and concern, because such a move on your part, you felt, would be unfair.

In the end however you have survived. You are still concerned for Ruburt because you realize that as a matter of survival added funds for your family would have to come from his efforts, since your own painting time is too important to lose. Your father personally did not appear because literally you could not see him doing this to you. So you did not see him give you the needle.