“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Actually, I have had a series of five dreams since October 27,1965, which I believe to be closely related. All of them involved myself in situations of rather drastic physical stress or outright peril. Since the outcome of the dreams left me whole, however, it seemed their symbolic meaning concerned conflicts other than the physical, and I was interested in pinning these down.

(The last in the series took place last night, and since it dealt with extreme situations concerning my own death, Jane and I thought it wise to inquire into it. I had thought of next Monday’s session as being soon enough at first, but by now the dreams were on my mind enough so that we thought of an unscheduled session. Also, other material in the regular sessions seemed to push the dream material aside.

Now you are afraid in the next dream that you both are in over your heads, so you see yourself and your brother in the water. He is still ahead of you, for he is now up to his neck in debt. You are not but you fear that your family situation, your parent situation, could put you in a like condition.

You then project this, thinking that it would happen to your brother first. So he goes under first, and you follow. You come to the surface because you realize that you would never in actuality let that kind of a situation keep you under for long. You do not see your brother because you are not so sure that such a condition could not keep him under indefinitely.

The first dream stated the situation as you saw it at present. Dick you saw as having fallen into debt; and you, by increasing your financial allotment to your parents to help pay for the furnace, had jumped in after him to his aid.

Now the last dream looks for the causes behind the situation, and the main key to it is the needle symbol, which on the one hand is a symbol for the penis. But it is not a phallic symbol, which has wider and deeper symbolic and racial implications than this one.

In the earlier dreams you were certain of your capacity to survive the situation which you feared. In this dream you faced the possibility that you would not survive so easily. Ruburt is in this episode because now you worry about the effect of your own reaction upon his condition in general.

Also, you are not at all certain in the dream that you would not prefer him to find outside employment, rather than increase your own work load, if a situation arose in which money was needed for your parents. Because your parents rather than his were involved you felt sadness and concern, because such a move on your part, you felt, would be unfair.

You are subconsciously very concerned with your parents’ situation, and also you anticipate financial difficulties because of them. You are also worried about your brother, and all of these have piled up.