“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Dream # 3; December 8,1965: Again in color. A long involved dream; believe part of the beginning of it escaped me as I woke up. The dream had to do with the fact that for some reason I was to be executed, by painless injection. I do not know why. At least part of the time I was in a brick-walled room partially underground. I think my father was to give me the needle.

(I believe that my own feeling was one of sadness that I wouldn’t be with her, more than anything else in the dream. Part of the time I was also outside of this brick room. I also believe that I had received the injection, and that it was supposed to take effect hours ago, but hadn’t done so. So here I was hours later, wandering around. I thought of Jane but did not see her, and still felt this sadness and concern much more than any fear. I believe the dream ended on this note. At no time in the dream did I actually see my father; I merely knew he was there, and involved.

Primarily they refer to your own subconscious feelings toward your father. Not only in regard to yourself, but in regard to your younger brother, and to Ruburt. Now this is on one level, and for a few moments we shall speak about the dreams on this level only.

On this level therefore, the three most important of these dreams are related: the two regarding your brother, and the dream that had to do with execution by needle, a painless one, to be carried out by your father.

In the third dream you face a painless execution which is to be carried out by your father, who will give you the needle. You see Ruburt, who is on a swing, and you are concerned and sad. Later you find yourself unhurt. You wander about, see Ruburt once more, and again you are concerned for him.

Now. All of these dreams have to do with your subconscious feeling that you and your younger brother could go under, mainly in a financial, but also in an emotional way, because of your father.

It was to be painless simply because your father did not mean in the dream to hurt you on purpose. But he would do it nevertheless, so you felt. The puzzlement is obvious. You did not see how he could do this to you.

In the end however you have survived. You are still concerned for Ruburt because you realize that as a matter of survival added funds for your family would have to come from his efforts, since your own painting time is too important to lose. Your father personally did not appear because literally you could not see him doing this to you. So you did not see him give you the needle.

For a very good reason you have forgotten a portion of the dream. At the last moment you simply walked out of the room, and refused to have this done to you. You did not remember this detail simply because it seems to you that you should make every sacrifice for your father. The concern and sadness you felt then, for Ruburt, was false, and added on to hide the fact that you had refused to be sacrificed.

The dreams very clearly show your fear and concern. There is also some element of distorted clairvoyance, in that your father’s death—when it does occur, and it is not imminent—will finally be a painless one.

(Added later: Seth was correct. My father’s death was peaceful and painless—six years later, on February 5,1971.)