“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I believe that my own feeling was one of sadness that I wouldn’t be with her, more than anything else in the dream. Part of the time I was also outside of this brick room. I also believe that I had received the injection, and that it was supposed to take effect hours ago, but hadn’t done so. So here I was hours later, wandering around. I thought of Jane but did not see her, and still felt this sadness and concern much more than any fear. I believe the dream ended on this note. At no time in the dream did I actually see my father; I merely knew he was there, and involved.

Now the last dream looks for the causes behind the situation, and the main key to it is the needle symbol, which on the one hand is a symbol for the penis. But it is not a phallic symbol, which has wider and deeper symbolic and racial implications than this one.

In the earlier dreams you were certain of your capacity to survive the situation which you feared. In this dream you faced the possibility that you would not survive so easily. Ruburt is in this episode because now you worry about the effect of your own reaction upon his condition in general.