“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Actually the young couple calling on us live in a downstairs apartment. They have been married about a month. Both of them work at my place of employment, Artistic Card Co., in Elmira. I secured the apartment for them when a vacancy developed just before their marriage. The young lady works with me in the art department. Her husband is a salesman who travels at irregular intervals, but quite often.

(Much was said before the envelope test developed, and this is summarized in Part Two. At about 11:50 PM Seth surprised me by asking if I had a test prepared. I replied that I had and went back to my studio to get the envelope I had readied for last Wednesday’s session, and my pen and notebook. Jane, as Seth, sat quietly talking with the Gallaghers while I was gone; I wondered if the enforced delay would give her time to become nervous.

(Break at midnight. Jane’s eyes now opened. She had been dissociated as usual. She asked me to open the test envelope. She said she had no idea whether the information given was correct.

(It will be remembered that in connection with the test photograph used in the 180th session, Seth/Jane stated: “...and a border. I think now of a border of flowers...” The test photograph has a white border. Seth now informed me that in the 180th session Jane distorted the information about the border of the photo into a border of flowers because of her personal childhood associations. He said Jane has an early memory of a border of flowers around a garden.

(Almost at the beginning of the session Jane, as Seth, pointed at me and said my head would be clear for the rest of the evening. Hay fever had been bothering me a great deal during the day. Seth said the reason I am bothered more at home than at work, where I feel remarkably good, is that the house dust in the apartment reminds me of house dust at home, and of my mother, when I was a child.

(Seth told me I have improved in my relations with my parents, even though this is hard to see for me, at times. I am doing all I am capable of for them at the moment. In the future I will expand enough to be able to include them in my awareness without fear of personal threat, which impedes me at the moment. My parents need love as a child needs love, unquestioningly, and this I cannot give at the moment. I should not feel guilty at this. My parents visited my brother Loren for four days during the week of August 29 to September 3. Seth said this was more than an ordinary visit as far as the folks are concerned, in that they were looking for the type of love described above from Loren and his wife also. Loren is 45; I’m 46; Jane 37.

(In this summary I give all the information I can recall on a particular subject at the same time, for convenience’s sake, although it may have been scattered throughout the session. Thus some of the above material was given to me after the Gallaghers had left.

(After the Gallaghers had left Seth told me Bill Gallagher had “great bursts” of energy. Bill and Peggy, he said, were very good for us and the sessions, in that they contributed. I do not recall more on this particular point. Seth told Bill that if he follows the material given on the construction of matter and suggestion, and applies it, he can be rid of his ulcer within a year. It will require discipline. Bill should read the material because the intellectual integrity behind it will appeal to him. Then he will understand how he creates his own ulcer.

(At one point I remarked to Bill Gallagher that I used to have two favorite questions for Seth: “What do you do between sessions?” and “How’s my old friend Frank Watts?” Seth’s answer to my first question was “What do you do?” He now gave essentially that answer when Peggy asked my old question tonight. Commenting on Frank Watts, the personality Jane and I first contacted on the Ouija board to begin these sessions, Seth told me that there were records in town pertaining to Frank Watts, if we would stir ourselves to look for them.

(Seth told me that if possible I should go out dancing as usual with Jane tomorrow night, Saturday, if I felt good enough. As it developed we did not go.

(Jane is at loose ends now, and quite restless. She will be calmer when she starts her next project. In the meantime she worries, Seth said, about my opinion of her because the money is slow in coming. She also worries about a delay before her next project is accepted, remembering the long delay between her first novel, The Rebellers, and the acceptance of the ESP book—at least a year. I reassured Seth that I am not worried about Jane or her contributions in any way. Seth told me that Jane is pulling her weight psychically in our household, and that money will follow.

(One disquieting subject arose after the Gallaghers had left, and Jane, Seth and I were talking quietly. Seth surprised me by mentioning our neighbor across the hall, Leonard Yaudes. We have known him for several years but he does not know of the sessions. Seth began by saying that the following information was on the edge of Ruburt’s awareness and that he was not very well focused upon it. It had to do with the possibility of an accident or an unpleasantness for Leonard sometime within the next three months. Seth then mentioned the period from September 15 to October 15, after saying that possibly he could focus a little more intently upon the problem.

(At first I had thought Seth meant that Jane and I would be involved in the trouble seen for Leonard, but Seth reassured me by saying we would not. It did not involve a disaster for Leonard, he said, nor a crippling accident; he used the word unpleasant often, and did not commit himself beyond this.

(The session ended at 1:10 AM. Jane had been dissociated as usual while speaking as Seth. Much of the time her eyes had been open. She had smoked many cigarettes. Her voice had usually been quiet, her pace a conversational one, which means that usually it is a little too fast for me to take notes. Jane felt no unusual fatigue at the end of the session.