“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I had intended to further our discussion concerning dream reality. Nevertheless I will be glad to discuss your aunt Ella, whose entity name is Dorinella.

Her previous lives were four. Her spiritual existence this time was a very happy one. The personality however was never entirely centered within physical reality, and was able to cope with it only by remaining relatively aloof.

Your father feels this way also. But he is bitter against it, and wants what it has to offer despite himself. She did not care. She was deeply attached to the other brother. She collected buttons and string and papers, even as she collected animals. To her the buttons almost seemed to have consciousness, and when she was alone she would take out her boxes of buttons and hold some in her hands, and remember the garments to which they belonged, and when she had worn them, and how the weather had been; and she lived in a present that was deeply colored by the past.

Her husband did resent this, and he would eye her when she sat thus, but he did not say a thing. She had saved the buttons from his garments also, and she would say, “Do you remember when you wore this suit, and where we were, and what we did?”

He did not tell her because he knew she would have had no part of him. So when she discovered this other part of him she felt betrayed. To some extent she was, since she had been honest with him. Then when she discovered that he was not willing or able to go either way, or pay either price, she was enraged and embittered, and did not think of him as a man. So she hated this sister of his and thought: was this, this squalor, what he wanted? And she looked at Jay and was envious, and hated him for being the sort of man she wanted and did not get.

But with such a psychic expansion you would know that you had nothing to fear. Until you know that you have nothing to fear, then the fear is a reality and must be treated as such. This development is not an easy one, nor can it be rushed, nor can you expect it of yourself.