“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(I have a few boyhood memories of Ella’s retarded son, also named Jay. He has been institutionalized for many years, and I do not believe Ella and her husband Wilbur saw him for a number of years prior to their deaths.)

She would not admit the fear, but would change the fear to pride, saying to herself that the world was evil, and she would therefore have little to do with it. And so she did not. She was not a foolish woman. She loved her husband most deeply. She and he shared a quite mystical love of nature and of animals. They would harm no one.

(The material on buttons surprised me a great deal. I had forgotten about Ella’s penchant for collecting things, and as far as I know had not mentioned it to Jane. Jane had no conscious memory of my doing so. As soon as Seth mentioned buttons, I immediately had a picture of Aunt Ella holding an old-fashioned red tin box, in which many buttons lay. As a boy I had been fascinated by this.)

Her husband did resent this, and he would eye her when she sat thus, but he did not say a thing. She had saved the buttons from his garments also, and she would say, “Do you remember when you wore this suit, and where we were, and what we did?”

I do not like to deal with isolated facts. For various reasons it is easier for me to deal with blocks of related material. Much shuffling is required to give isolated facts. While I am engrossed in this particular subject I will therefore continue with it. You end up with better and more detailed information in this way, since certain associations invoke related data.

(The shuffling Seth refers to above may have to do with the material on time and the electrical field. See the following sessions among others: 122, 123, 125, 126, 128, 131, 135. According to them, Seth would have to sort through blocks of electrical intensities in order to lift out individual bits of information.)

This desire for freedom from worldly concerns is a characteristic in your family on your father’s side. It has not been given any creative fulfillment except in your own case, for they have been thinking in terms of freedom from rather than freedom for. They did not have anything that they wanted to do with the freedom, but only escape. So your one brother with his [model] trains, and the other brother with his golf. The outlets are extremely necessary to them.

You have been doing much better in relating yourself with your parents. You are learning that you need not go to extremes, for extremes of behavior will only serve to confuse them further, and also rob you of consistency and peace.

He would do his mother no harm, and for this reason she can do him no harm. The desire and the intent to do violence almost inevitably brings forth violence.

There are definite reasons for this. The reasons have been known and forgotten, but the very practical facts remain. If Ruburt would indeed do his mother harm if the opportunity presented itself, then he would indeed be in danger of harm. He is not capable of hurting anyone deliberately, even someone he dislikes bitterly.

We will not go deeply into the sensations this evening, mainly because I am thinking of you, and do not wish to take up more than my share of your time.

You could therefore help them without being concerned with self-preservation. You must now be so concerned, and you are doing very well.