“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

She felt that it was her responsibility to have a child, and so she did. At the same time, because of the child’s defect, she managed to produce a child who was relatively free of those pressures against which she reacted. She produced in other words an idiot, who was in his own way supremely invulnerable to the realization of misfortune, a child who would not grow mentally into an adult, and a child who would remain secure in a relatively eternal childhood.

(Here Jane’s voice began to deepen and grow a bit louder. Jane knows rather little about my family history. Seth is correct in stating that my father’s older brother, my Uncle Jay, who is also dead, was connected with Ella in this life; he was very protective toward her, and after he died eight years ago his wife continued to watch over Ella.

Nor did she feel guilty. Basically she considered that she had indeed produced a human being who would remain in a sort of summer garden, secure from deep hurts and vain regret.

You must also realize that the entity who became her son also chose the circumstances, knowing of them in advance, for his own purposes. There are many character aspects to be considered here. For if each personality is an energy gestalt, then also each family group is also an energy gestalt. The actions and interactions form its characteristics and nature.

(As stated before, Jane met Ella twice, both times rather briefly some years ago, and has no idea how much she remembers of the visits subconsciously. Jane met Ella’s husband Wilbur once; he died a few years ago. I remember Wilbur as a small gentle man who was a tailor and who smoked strong cigars. He had a white mustache and a gravel voice. I recall that the family accused him of drinking heavily and of not taking care of Ella, although I recall no objective evidence of this. I always liked Wilbur. After his death Ella was moved to a nursing home.

For part of him was determined to gain worldly success, and he was always caught between wanting freedom, but he would not pay the price, or wanting worldly success for which he was not willing to pay the price. So that part of him that wanted success was attracted to your mother, who also wanted the same thing, and he spoke to her with that part of himself only. So in the beginning she did not know about this other part of him.

For your father was a great pretender in those early days; a dude and even a braggart, and he hid the part of himself that was aloof and sensitive, and wanted freedom. So he could be successful in no direction, for he did not know who he was.

One small point here. I meant to mention a relative, Alice, who is a strong masculine personality; well-integrated, however, because of a unifying drive. In other circumstances, if she had children for example, there would have been great misfortune.