“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Break at 9:18. Jane reported that she was dissociated as usual for a first break. She was as surprised as I was that Seth had announced a poor connection. We had no conscious ideas as to why this should be, and indeed this was the first time this problem had come up during the sessions.

They form a sort of insulation which makes communication difficult. You can see that they occur infrequently, since this is the first time that they have annoyed us. They occur to some degree fairly frequently, but this period is one in which they are strong enough to exert some force.

One point should be made here. It is sometimes difficult to give specific time limits, since basically I do not perceive time as you do.

(Jane now emphasized that where she would have “stiffened up” earlier, she now feels it foolish to let the fear of failure block what might be good material. Her attitude now is that if she is wrong once, perhaps she’ll do better the next time.

(Jane now resumed in the same quiet manner, sitting down and with her eyes closed. This time she began speaking again while holding a hand to her eyes, at 9:55.)

(End at 9:57. Jane was again dissociated as usual. She said that again she had the vaguest kind of an impression, this time of an object, perhaps the paperweight, on top of a dark wooden desk. She pointed out that Seth said nothing about the desktop being dark.)

(On the above evening I again experienced a feeling of enlargement in parts of my body. This was very similar to my experience of July 9,1965, at Oswego State University College in Oswego, NY. See page 131. Both experiences seem to be related to sound, and both took place in the small hours of the night after I had been sleeping for some time, then awakened. In each case Jane slept on beside me.

(At Oswego, I was awakened by a party of college students in a nearby residence hall. This time I was roused by the tenants downstairs, who came home at about 2:30 AM, with company, and sat in the backyard talking. It was a very hot and humid night.

(In a drowsy state, I lay on my left side with my arms loosely crossed over my chest. I began to feel the enlargement first in my hands, then across my chest. This time I was alert as to what was happening at the first signs, and tried to encourage it without making any strenuous effort of will. The results didn’t surpass those of July 9; they were just a bit different.

(My chest came to feel that it was much wider, much broader and stronger and thicker—perhaps a yard wide. My upper arms gradually grew to feel that they were as thick as my thighs. My hands, as on July 9, came to feel the size of baseball gloves. I was aware of a greatly enlarged feeling in each of the fingers to some degree, as before, but this time the feeling that my fingers were somehow united into a pawlike or clublike unit was dominant.

(The sensation was very pleasant and not at all frightening. This time I had no feeling of enlargement in my face, or in my body below the diaphragm. The sensation lasted very definitely for several minutes, giving me plenty of time to explore it, then gradually dwindled away.