“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

When it accepts an illness as a part of its own self-image, then the illness becomes an actual part of the reality that is the self. The personality must therefore be considered as a biological reality. It must also be considered as an electrical reality, as a psychological reality, for any experience is automatically translated into all these systems.

In all cases that I know of, these women are indeed neurotic and misled and self-deluded. Nevertheless they harm no one. They listen where no one else will listen. They are well-meaning, and occasionally they are able to use their inner abilities.

There is nothing wrong with the idea of an investigation. Ruburt simply should not be involved in it. It is not his place. It is not his area, and because of his conscientiousness, and hardheadedness, he would be much harder on these women than is necessary. But the thought of him baiting an elderly 72-year-old self-deluded woman is too much.

For when your other friend is relating to the exterior environment, he does something that Philip does not do. He closes himself off entirely, as much as possible, from the inside environment. Philip insists, in a rather cocky manner, in taking his own inner integrity along. Your other friend cannot, so far, relate the inner and the outer selves. He can relate to the inner self or the outer self, but he has not learned to unite the two, nor allowed for any understanding or communication between them.

When he is at work he thinks “This is not me, this is not myself.” The inner self has not so far recognized this other portion of the personality. When our friend Philip sells he is thinking “This is me. You can like it or not, but buy what I am selling.” But he believes in what he is selling.

Your other friend sends a part of himself into the marketplace, and leaves the essential part of himself at home. He is an expert salesman. He enjoys selling. But he will not admit that he enjoys it to his own inner self. The ulcer is caused by many things, and we have discussed some of them.

It is nevertheless the physical materialization of this lack of communication. Its purpose is basically a good one. The results are obviously poor. The ulcer is an attempt to force a recognition of unity from the various levels of the self. It is, literally, a physical bridge. At this time it is an impeding action, but it can be dissolved and resolved, according to our previous discussions.

The dependent portion of the personality is literally appalled at the more aggressive aspects of the whole personality. In the case of Philip, we find these aggressive tendencies welcomed. But because basically Philip is able to unite the various levels of the self, there is no such deep and persistent physical problem. The aggressiveness is given reign and acceptance. The tendency toward division in Philip’s personality shows itself in this tendency toward secrecy, which affects most deeply the nature of his home life.