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I will now suggest your first break, and as I have said many times, do not break up, for then I should have to pick up the pieces.

The passages will become clear as the personality becomes better acquainted with other portions of our sessions. There are here indeed other psychological and surface reasons for the illness, and also deeper reasons for the tendency toward this particular type of illness.

I now suggest your break, and I do myself indeed enjoy your pleasant summer evening. I would like to make it plain here, however, that on a surface psychological level, the personality plunges into activity, and it is for the present this portion of the personality with whom we must deal. Nevertheless, beneath there is a denial of involvement, and a strong desire for permanency, both of which are repressed, and the stronger the efforts put forth by the ego to repress these tendencies, then these tendencies will explode with inadequate stimuli. There will be an overaction on the part of the ego to compensate for the refusal to accept involvement on deeper levels.

(Break at 9:51. Jane was very well dissociated, she said. Her eyes had remained closed. Toward the end of this delivery her voice had increased in volume, and at times almost boomed out.

It is you, not I, who have been speaking of secondary personalities, and I will not here waste your time and mine in a discussion of why I am not one.

However, we have among us this evening indeed a secondary personality, a strong and savage one. We have here this evening a secondary personality that attempts to rule the complete life of the personality of whom we have been speaking, and its name is ulcer. For where lies the difference? The personality literally lives its life about the existence of the ulcer. It is hardly worth it, for the personality must be led to see that it itself has created the ulcer, both psychologically and physically, in most actual terms, and that it itself can indeed cast it out.

(Break at 10:15. Jane was again “way out,” as she puts it. Her eyes closed, she blinked several times, then came out of her trance. She said her eyes felt heavy when break came. Her delivery had been fast toward the end.)

(Jane’s eyes again opened briefly and she looked at Bill. Her eyes were large and very dark. As she spoke now they began to open and close periodically. Her delivery was faster, and her voice was becoming more emphatic, and louder at times.)

But in its overzealous behavior we find that it is instead threatening the self. Secondary personalities are caused by repressed emotions on a psychological basis that attempts to maintain an ascendancy. Your ulcer is indeed the same sort of growth, but on a physical and not on a psychological level.

I am going to suggest, first of all, that the material which we have mentioned be read, and then for a beginning that psychological time experiments be taken. Joseph and Ruburt, I know, will be glad to take the few moments necessary to explain them.

I would suggest for the psychological time experiments, fifteen minutes to begin with, along the lines of the directions which Joseph has given. You will find here an intimacy with portions of yourself which you would tend to ignore, which the ego would tend to ignore. You will find indeed refreshment and release. I would suggest that the directions, Joseph, be more specific. You can do better than you have done.

(For her part, Jane said she had been quite aware of Seth’s emotions, as her very active, smiling, and at times quite loud delivery had indicated.

Joseph. I will not continue this session, as I understand your reasons for ending it. As I believe I suggested over a year ago, the present witnesses are most beneficial, and I would suggest on some evening when the time is available, that we take advantage of their help, and hold a session under circumstances that allow us both larger scope in terms of quality and in terms of time.

I do however find myself hampered at times, and it is for this reason that I have made my suggestion. I will indeed now close with my heartiest best wishes to you all, and indeed I will endeavor to lower my voice, so that it cannot be said that we are not decorous. But we have been so serious of late, we have dealt with such serious and weighty matters, that I have not had time to make my personality known, or to speak with you as I would wish.

Because I am so sympathetic, I will then leave you as I found you, in peace and quiet, though indeed there are times, after the quiet of our sessions, when I would indeed speak with more spontaneity, for I have grown most fond of you both, and therefore I become more willing to display what I may call my more playful nature.