1 result for (book:tes4 AND session:161 AND stemmed:chang)
6/91 (7%)
ulcer
ego
permanence
rejects
sham
[... 22 paragraphs ...]
It is precisely because the inner vitality is not accepted by the ego, that when it is acknowledged by the ego it seems so explosive. The ego attempts, this ego attempts, to stand aside and to deny the inevitability of change. The ego in this case, as in many cases, attempts to maintain stability and permanence at all costs.
This ego in particular, and many egos, consider that the self is the ego alone. The ego considers that therefore it must maintain stability and permanence. It therefore attempts to become rigid, because it considers itself the main representative of the self. It attempts to deny the inner emotions because the changeability of these emotions would seem to threaten its own permanence. It does not want to change. Therefore any seemingly small incident will tend to bring forth the explosion of these emotions quite against the ego’s inclination, precisely because the ego denies them so vehemently.
[... 3 paragraphs ...]
What the personality must be led to see is that any real permanence would indeed be the death of the ego and the personality. For as we know, the ego is not the same today, in your terms, as it was yesterday, nor yet as it will be tomorrow. That “I” continually changes.
[... 2 paragraphs ...]
In other words the apparent intensity of the egotistical reactions is a sham on the part of the ego, to hide the fact that it refuses to become involved with action as a whole, because it fears for its permanence. When the ego understands, and it will, that it is a portion of the whole self, and itself a part of action, then indeed it will not fear for its own permanence, for it will realize that being a part of action, its very nature is dependent upon change, and vitality, and value fulfillment.
[... 45 paragraphs ...]
(End at 11:03. Jane was well dissociated again. Her eyes had been closed except for the one instance noted. Bill Gallagher said he thought he had noticed a change in Jane’s features, at least in terms of expression, during this last delivery. It was hard for him to describe, he said.
[... 12 paragraphs ...]
(End at 11:20. Jane was again well dissociated. Once again, Bill Gallagher reiterated that he thought he detected a change in Jane’s features, particularly about the mouth.)
