“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Further work with it at this time turns to an introversion with the personal subconscious, and an overinvolvement with it as far as overall focus is concerned. The half-hour is sufficient and beneficial. A deeper involvement however at this time serves to focus your energies in a bunch, so to speak, in the personal subconscious, blocking creative energies that come from deeper layers of the inner self. The half-hour however will allow you, in a smooth manner, to communicate with this important area of the self in a way that will not block other energies, and that will be beneficial.

I would also suggest for the present that you deal with other matters than your health; then you may return to the subject, and I will be glad to further elaborate upon what information you receive. My further suggestions are that you return to painting or sketching, and you will find that your energies will now be allowed much more freedom.

What you have been in danger of doing is using too much energy oriented toward the past, and this will also show itself in your physical reactions. Your trouble of yesterday and today does indeed originate because you have not been painting, but one of the reasons that you have not been painting is that energy has been used as a searchlight into the past, searching for certain origins.

It is in your nature to use much of your energy in artistic creation. You must then turn it outward in this manner. From the wealth of inner data your nature demands that you form new gestalts, and in painting them you automatically relate them outward. You need the inner data and the journeys inward, but these must always be of a disciplined nature, and not overdone.

More energy indeed can be held in the personal subconscious in such a manner than can be used in studying other areas of the inner self, for it is in the personal subconscious that energy blockage most frequently occurs. This does not mean that you should cease in that direction. A smooth and disciplined schedule will serve you well here. I would indeed suggest however that this half- hour schedule not include your weekends.

You have indeed been trying too hard with the pendulum, which sets up its own kind of resistance. At your present stage of development with the pendulum you get a reaction that could be compared to a closed circuit, where the energy is directed into the past, into the personal subconscious too abruptly, and too intensified, and is not yet allowed the release of discovering full causes, which would then release not only that energy, but the energy that has in the past gone into the formation of various physical ills.

At a later time, you see, the difficulty will automatically be passed, there will be a freer flow of energy, and a quicker release of it. Even in your desire to discover such original causes of physical ills, a part of you sets up resistances, new ones, which take additional energy.

The half-hour schedule will allow for a disciplined, smooth and automatic self-discovery which will not drain your energies. You have indeed additional energy at your command, but the focus in the personal subconscious prevents you from using it. You will find that your condition is now improving and will continue to do so. And all of this also involves a practical lesson in the nature of action.

These incidents in the past, that appear as the original initiation of an illness, they represent points, or kinks, where energy is not smoothly used, but tends to bunch up because of a resistance. Now obviously the particular energy does not bunch up, but a pattern remains in the personality where energy is spent in resistance, and not in efficient action, and not in effective idea constructions.

In his case, extra reserves of energy have been used in practical concerns over his book, although to deal with them he has drawn upon additional energies. There is still here a certain holding back, with which we must all contend. Unfortunately the knowledge that his book will be published, while bringing him much satisfaction, has also served to remind him of the manner in which he fears many might look upon both our sessions and his past endeavors in this field.