“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I would also have greeted Ruburt’s father, but indeed I was not invited to join the graceful family circle. I would not be one to upset such a quiet gathering. The woman, seriously, has found some comfort with Ruburt’s father, but the personality is in sore trouble, and explosive. I will not devote any more time to this subject now.

I will here mention Ruburt’s dream, in which he spoke reassuringly to two men who were ill with cancer by telling them that this material said that he too had cancer.

This dream is a sequel to another, in which Ruburt was aware of the death of an old woman who was a medium, and I will need to explain the first dream, that is the earlier one, to make the other dream comprehensible.

In the first dream Ruburt remembered his earlier death. He was a woman medium in Boston, dying at 82 or 83 of cancer. He was not, then, afraid of death, knowing its true nature, and in the surrounding rooms there were other old people. Two in particular were men, dreadfully afraid of death, and both dying of cancer.

In Ruburt’s second dream he experienced no feeling of dread when he spoke of having cancer, because at the time he was not afraid. He reassured the two. One was a shipyard worker. One was a lawyer in his younger days but due to trouble he died poor.

The second dream was brought on by the memories subconsciously released in the first dream, and the whole memory block, oddly enough, was released by the fact that Ruburt had in the present some difficulty with his monthly periods. It had been on his mind, brought to his consciousness once the possibility of the difficulty as being a cancer symptom.

It was only after this dream that the knowledge that the woman had died of cancer was allowed to emerge. The fact that Ruburt experienced in the dream, or following it, no sense of either fateful predestination or even fear, was a tip-off that the dream was not clairvoyant in terms of a future prediction.

The men, reassured by Ruburt in the dream, appeared without being old, although the original event of the past life involved men in their 70’s. This was a distortion of the personal subconscious, to add to the seeming separateness of the two dreams.

On a conscious level, even though Ruburt remembered them, there seemed to be nothing to connect them. This is in keeping with the sometimes necessary inclination of the subconscious to block out such knowledge.

There is also a reason why Ruburt saw the former gallery administrator in the old woman dream, immediately after he perceived the old woman dead. I had mentioned that this woman was known to you in previous life. It is for this reason that Ruburt saw her. However, the elements of the dream were disintegrating, and he saw the woman in the form with which he is familiar with her in this life. The washing machine that he saw is an excellent example of subconscious knowledge distortion and fabrication.

The dream sequence for that group of days involved perception, first, of Ruburt’s actual previous death, and then leaped that same evening back further to much earlier events. The purpose of the whole sequence was reassuring, and in overall nature had to do with the personality’s inner reaction to the season of an approaching winter and the ever symbolic death that it suggests.

On one level then Ruburt was psychically anticipating winter with its symbolism, and he involved you in his concern. The dream said that Ruburt died once and yet lived again, and that as you survived a leaky old ship at one occasion, so would the basic selves always survive.

At the same time the more nearly conscious worries present in everyone were felt by Ruburt in his cancer concern, and the dream said “You have already died of cancer, it will not happen again.” So the dream had meanings on several levels.

I would add one remark. In the dream Ruburt said the material told him that he had cancer, because in a previous life he did have clairvoyant knowledge, through his psychic ability, of his future disease; and since his psychic ability has only lately come to light with this material, you can see the connection.