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(Lately, since his return from Cape Cod, Bill has had a few twinges in his lung, a mild return of the trouble dealt with by Seth in some detail in the 56th session, May 25, 1964, page 110. In the 68th session, page 218, July 6, 1964, Seth stated that unless Bill took certain steps the lung trouble would return. And lately, Bill has been looking for a place to live that he could also use as a studio.

(This statement took me by surprise, until I remembered that in the 63rd session, June 17, 1964, page 159, Seth had given a date of Sept. 2 in which plans “may be born at that date which will affect his participation in his professional field.” I refer of course to John Bradley, entity name Philip; and John had been a witness to the 63rd session.)

One note to Mark. I have mentioned rather strenuously that it is most necessary for him to find his own establishment. The twinges that he feels are indeed warnings, or nudges rather, from his own subconscious mind, that he do this and thus bring the plans for it into actual reality.

I cannot now tell you any more. Of someone close by. There are inner difficulties of late against which Philip has been struggling. The discussion may be involved with these also, or at least touch upon them in his mind.

I would add–not to this–that of late Ruburt is learning to let his subconscious mind work for him, rather than against him; having to do with the gallery. I am not going to have these sessions deal with mental tricks, even though the end would be a good one. The demonstrations of this sort will always arise spontaneously, and the spontaneous data that so arises will usually be accurate.

Three nights ago, of a large room. I am aware of it through his subconscious mind. He is not consciously aware of it, I do not believe, although it hastened his plans. There was a shadow over the room, and the room was divided into many portions, which represented the various divided fears and desires he has at this time.

The room in his dream had a circular ceiling which represented, if he will excuse me, the womb of his mother, from which the adult must finally symbolically escape.

Mark may not remember his dream. Ruburt has the sometime habit of recording his dreams, and an interpretation of them at some times would be helpful. And really now: a fond good evening. As always I could go on for hours, and here you are, weary after the long day. I know I should take pity on you. Will I?

(End at 10:07. Jane was dissociated as usual. Bill said he could not remember his dream. He did confirm however, the presence of a green and white boat that was anchored out in the bay, and in view from the front room of Larry O’Toole’s cottage. It was, he said, perhaps a fifteen-foot cabin-type speedboat, and might have had something in it; on this point Bill was not sure. The top of the boat was green, the bottom white. He also remembered a green rowboat that was anchored out in front of the house. Bill then suggested that he write to Larry O’Toole for confirmation, since as far as he knew O’Toole should still be in Provincetown. In particular, O’Toole could check on the rowboat with a symbol on its bow, as described by Seth.

One note. You both can and should learn to utilize your energies in the same manner that Ruburt utilizes his energies during a session. His fatigue is not only forgotten, but he is no longer fatigued although his working day was personally exhausting.

He is given, indeed, to a peculiar habit of sloth which he must conquer if his artistic abilities are to bear fruit. And you, dear friend, could do with giving your intuitions greater freedom, for you are already adequately blessed with self- discipline.

He will never give up such a title without the most dire struggles. And it was to prevent his being given such a title that I suggested that he leave the gallery. His ego satisfaction, which is so hungry, and his actual need for finances, should be satisfied and could be through his writing, as I told you.

There is danger of a division of energy. His ego will lap up whatever praise it needs through being an assistant to the director. And this in the long run would not be to his advantage, nor indeed to yours.