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(Lately, since his return from Cape Cod, Bill has had a few twinges in his lung, a mild return of the trouble dealt with by Seth in some detail in the 56th session, May 25, 1964, page 110. In the 68th session, page 218, July 6, 1964, Seth stated that unless Bill took certain steps the lung trouble would return. And lately, Bill has been looking for a place to live that he could also use as a studio.

(“Who is he with?”

(Bill said that he still could not recall the rowboat with the symbol on it at the Provincetown dock, although he readily agreed that he could have seen it and forgotten it. He explained that due to the construction of the wharf one saw just to the left as he looked out the front room in question, that it would be quite difficult to see as small an object as a rowboat tied up there; the wharf is quite high, and due to the slant of the beach a small low object like a rowboat would be hard to see.

(Bill did say he remembered another kind of boat there, some kind of barge and derrick craft. I asked him if he had any friends who might still be there, that he could write to for verification.

One note to Mark. I have mentioned rather strenuously that it is most necessary for him to find his own establishment. The twinges that he feels are indeed warnings, or nudges rather, from his own subconscious mind, that he do this and thus bring the plans for it into actual reality.

Three nights ago he had a dream that symbolically also gave him the same directions. At another time we will go into the importance of dreams on their various levels, and outline the kinds of dreams more thoroughly than has been done by psychologists to date. The subject will be of great interest to you, and we shall use your own dreams as examples.

In a deep trance we could tell you much, Ruburt and I, but I still agree on the principles of cooperation, and always follow the dictates of caution. Ruburt’s abilities along these lines are great, but it is necessary always that certain controls are maintained; and he certainly sees to that!

Three nights ago, of a large room. I am aware of it through his subconscious mind. He is not consciously aware of it, I do not believe, although it hastened his plans. There was a shadow over the room, and the room was divided into many portions, which represented the various divided fears and desires he has at this time.

The room in his dream had a circular ceiling which represented, if he will excuse me, the womb of his mother, from which the adult must finally symbolically escape.

(End at 10:07. Jane was dissociated as usual. Bill said he could not remember his dream. He did confirm however, the presence of a green and white boat that was anchored out in the bay, and in view from the front room of Larry O’Toole’s cottage. It was, he said, perhaps a fifteen-foot cabin-type speedboat, and might have had something in it; on this point Bill was not sure. The top of the boat was green, the bottom white. He also remembered a green rowboat that was anchored out in front of the house. Bill then suggested that he write to Larry O’Toole for confirmation, since as far as he knew O’Toole should still be in Provincetown. In particular, O’Toole could check on the rowboat with a symbol on its bow, as described by Seth.

One note. You both can and should learn to utilize your energies in the same manner that Ruburt utilizes his energies during a session. His fatigue is not only forgotten, but he is no longer fatigued although his working day was personally exhausting.

It is a fact beyond dispute that at a later hour he is able to avail himself of energy not usually available to him, and to use this energy constructively and effectively. Without duplicating the exact circumstances the three of you in this room can learn to use your energy as effectively in ordinary pursuits. There is a change of focus. Mark has also much energy that he is not using.

He is given, indeed, to a peculiar habit of sloth which he must conquer if his artistic abilities are to bear fruit. And you, dear friend, could do with giving your intuitions greater freedom, for you are already adequately blessed with self- discipline.

Mark is considering a commitment to an idea. Unless he studies himself most thoroughly, he must take great pains to see that the commitment is followed up by self-discipline. You should see to it that your self-discipline follows the dictates of intuition. If you will excuse the comment, Ruburt is either all self-discipline or all intuition.

He should endeavor to tie the two together, in some kind of package. I will not make any practical suggestions anymore unless you ask me on the proverbial bended knee. I meet with suspicion; not one of my suggestions are followed.

He will never give up such a title without the most dire struggles. And it was to prevent his being given such a title that I suggested that he leave the gallery. His ego satisfaction, which is so hungry, and his actual need for finances, should be satisfied and could be through his writing, as I told you.

I suggest something. I will say good night. If I feel like going on for hours, it is because one year ago tonight I first made contact with Ruburt—at least a subconscious initial contact of which he was not consciously aware. The year has been a good one, even though my practical suggestions have not been followed, your situation has improved in line with the laws of expectation.

Ruburt might squawk, but he has nothing to squawk about. I keep him in shape, and I’m afraid I’ll have to do the same for you. And so good night.