“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Ruburt did not call me, and yet certain elements in his inner mind spontaneously came to my attention. It occurred to me that perhaps you did not know the importance of the material, or found it difficult to pick out its most distinguishing and valuable points.

The difference between value fulfillment and growth, the fifth dimension, and the expanding universe portions should also be stressed. When man realizes that he himself creates his personal and universal environment in concrete terms, then he can begin to create a private and universal environment much superior to the one that is the result of haphazard and unenlightened constructions.

When man realizes that he creates his own image now, he will not find it so startling to believe that he creates other images in other times. Only after such a basis will the idea of reincarnation achieve its natural validity, and only when it is understood that the subconscious, certain layers of it, is a link between the present personality and past ones, will the theory of reincarnation be accepted as fact.

I must therefore work within the limitations of both of your doubts, and your doubts and only your doubts, will hold us back. For both of your informations, and this is entirely without distortion, Ruburt, for all his bellowing, will find the following as impractical as you will, Joseph.

My suggestion will be, therefore, that Ruburt do his own work in the mornings. Incidentally, I will make some effort to help him in this line, so that financially things will balance out. Afternoons, instead of working at the gallery, I would suggest that he busy himself with my book. Seriously, as he does with his own work, and that you continue to record our sessions.

For this he is to blame, and not you, since he knows intuitively what I will say; and out of fear and doubt he has refused to act upon the knowledge. You could have been persuaded, but again for all his yacking, he did not have the courage of his inner convictions, and really made no attempt to act upon them.

Had he left the gallery when his novel was published, he would by now have one and a half times his present income from writing. That is, his yearly income would exceed what it is now.

Both of you, being practical, hardly considered it. For all his talk, he feared failure and your opinion of it. If you want to test the validity of expectation, then I will not say I challenge you, but I merely gently submit the above schedule.

Above all the commitment. While other avenues are being used to approach financial gains, in this case they are relied upon too long. Ruburt fixed the car, so to speak, in his own psychic manner. He would never have fixed it with a screwdriver, if he had a screwdriver in his hands.

Again, he is quite to blame here, in that he is intuitively aware of pent-up energy that should go into his own work.

He was, and is, afraid of commitment to his own work, much less mine. You can be of great assistance to him, to yourself and to me. His energy, Joseph, and his ability to project ideas into material construction, is truly astounding; and with your help we must tap it.

It is precisely because Ruburt will be cut off from funds that he will permit himself, and demand of himself, that he use all of his tremendous energy in his work. Not in any sort of conscious desperation, but in the sudden and joyous release of energy toward constructive ends.

This is an extreme simplification, but while he is getting funds elsewhere, he does not really feel the need or the impetus to sell his work. That is, the impetus is not strong enough to overcome certain repressions that he allows himself in his writing now.

Ruburt will shortly come out of his daze. I imagine he will feel rather shocked. The decision, as always, is your own. I will not reprimand you if you do not take this course. I do say that it is the best one.

(In the 75th session, July 29, 1964, page 273, Seth stated regarding Bill: “Your friend has made two friends, one older and one approximately his own age. He is of course, or has been, near water. He has been at a bar with a large keg in it. There are two houses nearby, and a front room across from a beach. There is a boat and dock. I also believe he was in a group with four men, maybe something to do with a string of shells, also.”

(Bill reached Provincetown the second week in July. He had not been there long, he said, when he did meet a man as described by Seth in the 68th session. His name and address will be furnished on request. The man was 54 years old actually, and his “prickly hair” turned out to be a brush cut. Bill first got acquainted with him in the Old Colony Bar in Provincetown. The man is from New York City, and was spending a week in Provincetown to “get away from his wife and family.”

(In the 68th session Seth mentioned a rowboat with a symbol. Bill recalls no such boat, stating he did not pay particular attention to boats. His acquaintance wore a cap with an anchor symbol on it, although we do not regard this as being what Seth referred to.

(Bill did make two friends, one older, and one about his own age. The young man is named Gary, and is from Boston. The older man is named Larry O’Toole, and is from Baltimore, MD. Both are artists. Gary is about 25, [Bill is 27], and Larry O’Toole is 50 or so. Bill knew Gary for about two weeks, and O’Toole for about six weeks. He has their addresses, and Gary’s last name which he could not recall offhand.

(Bill states it is his belief that the “two houses nearby” do refer to the two cottages mentioned above, one shared by Gary and Larry O’Toole, with the front room across from the beach, since they are not far down the street from the A-House bar.