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(Jane had no idea of the subject matter for the session as the time for it approached. She was not nervous. And once again, as in the 75th and 76th sessions, 9 PM came and passed, and she did not begin dictating as scheduled. She did begin at 9:01, however. Her voice was quiet, her pace rather slow. Her eyes darkened as usual.)

I will not go into this deeply this evening, except to say that he was thoroughly shocked. In many ways he is indeed a creature of habit, and he feels comparatively safe at the gallery and hates to give up a retreat which has helped financially, certainly. Where his writing is not concerned, and when he relates himself to the world at large, he is timid, fearful, and without the confidence that his inner knowledge of his own worth should certainly give him.

The appearance of confidence, the engaging social self, is indeed a cover-up, adopted to give him time to acclimate to new circumstances of this sort. As you well know, he lived in close supervision with his mother, and until his late, very late adolescence his whole life was literally spent within the confines of fifteen blocks, except for very short excursions.

He was certainly encouraged, and by his mother, to pursue the ways of inward intellectual freedoms, up to a point; but he was early inculcated with the expectation that the outside world meant danger at the least, and tragedy more probably.

Selling door to door had to him the subjective advantage in that he was master of the situation, and was indeed the invader. The hapless householder was on the defensive. This will no longer work, and I suggest he not consider it. In his own way he had been brooding. He would like some prestige in terms of position and financial benefit, that earlier did not concern him.

(Break at 9:28. Jane was dissociated as usual. A rather long break followed, during which we discussed the course her writing should take in the immediate future. The more we talked the less we seemed able to decide; and finally it dawned upon us that we were both weary, and probably should not be trying to make such decisions while feeling this way.

(Break at 10:02. Jane was dissociated as usual. Really out, she said. She resumed in the same manner, again with some pauses, at 10:05.)

(End at 10:26. Jane was dissociated as usual. She said she felt that Seth could have continued indefinitely but was taking it easy on us because we were tired. I remarked that I felt okay, and that I could continue for a while if anyone wanted to.

(Jane then resumed as she sat at the table with me. Her voice was a bit stronger and rapid. 10:27.)

I mentioned earlier that he is more in need of a vacation than you are, as last year the situation was reversed. His need is not as pressing as yours was then, but it is pressing nevertheless. Physical activity will be good. Any creative physical improvements in the apartment will help. He has attempted much more fully than ever to meet what he considers his responsibilities than ever before willingly, and can use an exuberance. Exuberance to him indeed is a safety valve, and all in all an excellent one when kept within bounds.

(End at 10:45. Jane was dissociated as usual. My writing hand felt very little fatigue.)