“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Trying psychological time on Tues. 8/4, 8:15 PM, I had no results. I missed trying on Wed, 8/5. Jane had nothing to add to the record. Both of us feel we are at low psychic ebb yet.

When a belief in an abstract term seems to negate another abstract term, it may simply be because your acceptance or expectation is not expansive enough to include both.

(Break at 9:28. Jane was dissociated as usual. A rather long break followed, during which we discussed the course her writing should take in the immediate future. The more we talked the less we seemed able to decide; and finally it dawned upon us that we were both weary, and probably should not be trying to make such decisions while feeling this way.

You will both benefit from your vacation. There will be no sessions. I even suggest that you dispense with your psychological time experiments during that time.

Ruburt might benefit from sketching, as he planned. You, Joseph, might find it most beneficial to sketch for future paintings. Sensuous pleasure will do you both much good during your vacation, a sensuous and psychic immersion into the patterns of nature will refresh you both.

I know that this next suggestion will meet protests on both of your parts, for what you suppose to be practical reasons. Nevertheless, because of your particular constitutions, small vacations should definitely become a part of your yearly existence; and when you expect them, the means for them will come. But faith must be shown.

I am purposefully giving this kind of material this evening, for my own reasons. Although you are both doing ever so much better, nevertheless you have expended much subconscious energy in the recent past, and not in constructive ways. This loss is much less than the same situation would have caused you in the past.

Nevertheless it has drained you both to some extent. Luckily it will not be at all difficult for you to spring back. Psychically, you are much more resilient now. Another small point. From your small circle of friends you do receive a very beneficial exchange of psychic energies and comprehensions.

This has been lacking with Mark, for one, presently away. It is not Mark, necessarily, only that the unobtrusive but frequent, informal exchange between you and Ruburt and a close friend from the outside world has been lacking. This sort of relationship with someone you both find congenial is a psychic breath of fresh air, in that it provides outlets and psychic interchanges that are extremely important.

While your relationship, that is the relationship between you and Ruburt, is extremely helpful to you both, you have a tendency, each of you, to become ingrown; and psychically you do need a variety, influx and the diversified data subconsciously obtained from others, as you also add to their influx.

My fond good evening to you both. You are in no danger of a severe depression of any kind. One of the benefits of these personal readings is that I can help you catch yourselves way ahead of time, so to speak, and this is an adventure more important than you realize.

Expectation on his part of the house to some degree at least provided this. His tendency, both for undisciplined reactions and for habitual discipline, seem contradictory, but represent merely counterbalances in his nature. He could, conceivably, act with no discipline, but he could also conceivably deny himself any freedom at all, and hide within schedule and habit.