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(Again it was a very hot and humid night. By the time session time approached Jane said she was too hot and tired to feel nervous, or anything else. We expected no witnesses.

(Jane began dictating in a quiet voice, at a comfortable speed as far as my writing ability was concerned. She paced about the room at an even rate; her eyes darkened as usual. She maintained these qualities all through the session.)

In all likelihood our sessions in this house are drawing to a close, but the house itself will be healthier for future inhabitants than it was before you came.

I was glad to see that Ruburt began the back exercises once more. The quietude and relaxation derived from them is excellent. Also a certain training in concentration is achieved.

This is going to be in some respects a relaxed session. I want to point out that the back exercises, because of the quietude and training in concentration, represent excellent practices for both of you, and for Ruburt in particular. His old thyroid condition has cleared up. What remains is again merely habit, although it was once closely connected to a physical disorder.

It is also the reason for many of his problems in the past, and to a much lesser degree in the present. His mother, representing authority to him as a child, was frightening, threatening, sometimes cruel, and capricious. The child took literally the mother’s statements that though a cripple, she could walk at night, would turn on the gas jets, and so forth.

The child emotionally was almost paralyzed with terror, hence the thyroid condition, hence also the child’s quick motions, fast, frightened responses that were desperate defense mechanisms. The new director is a figure of authority, and insists in fact upon being considered in such a light.

It is also true that during certain periods of the month his hormones are more active, since he inhabits, and is, a woman this time. He also turned down rather coldly the man’s innocent enough invitation that you visit his home. You were indeed busy that evening, but this was not the reason for Ruburt’s refusal.

In earlier years such a situation was faced by Ruburt in a blind panic run from one end of the continent to another. So we may say that he has improved.

Again, your help was extremely beneficial. Relaxation, and in particular occasional whole days away, that is, an occasional whole day away, is excellent, and well worth any inconvenience it might cause.

(Break at 9:35. Jane was dissociated as usual. As in recent sessions during this heat wave, she was bothered not at all by heat and humidity while dictating, while I had to use a cardboard beneath my writing hand to avoid soaking the paper. Jane resumed in the same quiet, and at times much amused manner at 9:43.)

He, Ruburt, definitely thinks it would be. He can be extremely unbending, but I believe that this session will help matters considerably. I am speaking now of the situation as it exists in the present. Ruburt was jealous for his own authority at the gallery. He did not want to accept full responsibility for the gallery, and yet he wanted definite responsibility along definite, limited lines.

(Break at 10:11. Jane was dissociated as usual. Again, she had not been bothered by the heat while dictating. She said that even when Seth is talking about her, when she is balling herself out so to speak, she has no urge to interrupt him in her own behalf or defense.

This, however, should begin to fade out. It would do no harm to invite the man for a drink in your home, though I admit that to either of you the suggestion amounts to a treason of sorts. It would do you, Joseph, no harm to allow him in your house, where you could size him up for yourself. One simple well-meant invitation might be in order—and this was hell to get through, with Ruburt’s blocks.

It might even help Ruburt to see the director when he was not in a position of authority that he felt honor bound to uphold. I did not mean to take the whole session up with private matter. Nevertheless it is well that this material came through.

(Jane told me after the session that as she delivered these words, she abruptly realized that both her hands, thrust into the pockets of her slacks, were clenched tight. Indeed she was tensing, she knew.)

(Seth has mentioned this before; this time I was ready with my question when he mentioned this preparation again. But all I got for my pains was a smile from Jane.)

(End at 10:45. Jane was dissociated as usual. My writing hand felt no fatigue.)