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The rebellion is caused by the restrictions. He was more used to an independence of motion, and greater leeway in using his own judgment. The conflict arises because he tries to balance this, which grates against his grain, with the hope of, or against the hope of, future possibilities of gaining more independence, and using creative abilities in teaching the children’s classes.

—at the thought of taking one person’s word as standing for absolute truth. Hence his discomfort in taking dictation of even a simple letter that must be transcribed in faithful replica to the words and ideas of another.

As a secretary, our dear Ruburt will simply not succeed. At least not as the sort of secretary now required. Taking down someone else’s words, verbatim, is to Ruburt, because of his own creative ability an inferior position.

He would, perhaps, stick to a respect for small details if they were part of a creative concept, even perhaps the creative concept of another, as details are extremely respected by him in his poetry, where he transforms them into creative concept.

This is then the reason for our fuss, and since Ruburt did enjoy a certain independence in which he functioned well, he now feels deprived and angry. It will be difficult for me to say more, though this much should be a great help. Also, close or even fairly close supervision bothers Ruburt because of the constant closeness of his mother in space, during youth.

(Jane’s father, Delmer Roberts, had visited us a few weeks ago. He is a rover; Jane seldom sees him, and even on his visit from Florida Del stayed with us but a few days.

(“Did you have his permission to contact us?”)

(Then, I was directly above a parked car, an older type of sedan with a rounded gray roof. Looking down upon this car, I saw a wiry youngish man in a white shirt with the sleeves rolled above his elbows; hurriedly, he was circling the car, going all around it and peering into the windows. I could not see if the car was on a highway, in a driveway, or where.

(My correspondent had thick brown hair, a slim muscular build, a wide generous worried mouth, a squarish jaw. Each time he spoke to me, I saw him all alone, as on a large milky-white screen. The screen cut him off at the waist, and was large in proportion to the size of the man. Each time he spoke, he seemed to lean into view on the screen from the lower right, and remained leaning somewhat as he spoke. My viewpoint had also lowered itself, though not to his level.