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I will not keep you this evening, for obvious reasons. My regrets to you, Ruburt, and my sympathy.

Ruburt is not quite with me this evening because of his condition, and it was this conflict that was sensed by your cat. Ruburt’s condition is improving, however, and there is nothing to worry you here in any important manner, though Ruburt of course is most uncomfortable. In the interim I have succeeded, as you might notice, in straightening him out to some degree.

It is a beautiful evening. I regret that we cannot hold our session. Nevertheless, I suggest that Ruburt rest, and also rest tomorrow, as it will be most beneficial; and I will definitely go into the reasons for his condition.

I am extremely sorry that Ruburt feels so badly, and I will do what I can to help. My dear friends, I wish you a fond good evening; and may I mention briefly that you were right, Joseph; your last experience with psychological time was most significant. And Ruburt had also tuned in on the same conversation, but had already begun to tense, and therefore was blocking every psychological stimulus in the hopes of blocking out the right one. Unfortunately, he blocked out all of this except the right one.

Incidentally, the book that Ruburt was reading did have something to do with bringing on his condition, and involved a morbid fascination on his part, bringing out many old resentments. I will not keep you longer. The information will prove just as beneficial at a later date.

Again, a most fond good evening. And to Ruburt, I am sorry for the regrettable circumstances that make him unable to hold a session. You will be fine soon, my ruby.

I would add one brief note for Ruburt’s edification. Surely he must be aware that his mother’s characteristic pose in bed was one that necessitated a complete turning of the upper body, whenever she wished to look one way or the other; and that her neck, because of her arthritis, could not turn normally.

With Ruburt this involves an aping, or adoption, a symbolic attempt to become the hated object, and therefore to be free of any hatred that might be directed by that object toward Ruburt.

Psychologically you will find this principle quite sound; symbolically, the fearful attempt to become part of the feared individual, and therefore escape the venom that might be directed outward. These feelings were rearoused by Ruburt’s reading of the book, where childbirth was depicted as causing the mother great agony.

Since Ruburt’s mother had often spoken most vehemently of Ruburt’s birth being a source of disease, that is her arthritis, and pain, subconsciously Ruburt feared on a basic level that his mother wished to punish him for causing her such pain.

The wry neck enabled Ruburt to identify with his mother, and therefore avoid such punishment. At the same time, the wry neck itself inflicted a punishment in place of the imagined and feared greater punishment which Ruburt felt his mother intended, the imagined punishment being a basic and infantile terror of being pulled back into the womb.

If Ruburt’s mother had it to do over, she would not have had the child; and the child hidden within the adult still feels that the mother actually has the power, even now, to force the child back into the womb, and refuse to deliver it.

I am giving this material now, rather than later, as I said I would, because I could tell that Ruburt would clamp up on me, as far as this particular subject is concerned, after the pain was gone, and block this material.

The psychological situations that give cause to Ruburt’s mother’s arthritis condition are not present in Ruburt, and once and for all, he does not have to fear such a dilemma. Quite simply arthritis, despite its being in his family, is not one of the diseases which will ever bother him.

Now I will leave you for the evening, having tricked Ruburt into hearing the truth upon this matter. It’s for your own good, Ruburt.