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(At 8:45 Jane awoke from her nap feeling much refreshed. She asked me if she could share my studio with me and of course I agreed, having offered this arrangement some time ago. Her desk and books do not take up much room. Jane was so enthusiastic over this idea that she forgot to be nervous before the session began.

You are quite right. The solution hit upon is an excellent one, and I had nothing to do with it, having decided that I was much safer if I left such decisions to you from now on. All joking aside, this latest idea should really be an excellent one, and I would have suggested it myself except that I could not get through to Ruburt. He has felt guilty over the thought of taking any space from you, and the guilt made him feel resentful.

(Break at 9:31. Jane was dissociated to a fair degree. By break time her delivery had become very deliberate, with quite a few pauses. Her voice was normal. The same conditions prevailed when she resumed at 9:36.)

(Break at 10:02. Jane reached the same degree of dissociation as she did during the first monologue. Her delivery was still quite deliberate, her voice quite soft. The same conditions prevailed when she resumed at 10:08.)

(Again Jane was leaning over my desk.

(A Kennedy rocker sat opposite my desk. Now Jane sat down there. She laughed. Her eyes were merry. She sipped at a small glass of wine as she dictated to me. It was one of the few times I had seen her sit down during a session.)

(Break at 10:32. Jane was in her usual state of dissociation this time. See the 16th session for Seth’s dissertation on flying saucers and their dilemma of form.

(Jane said that during the above monologue she also had a mental image from Seth. It was of a series of circles reaching out from her. Our plane would be one circle; and at the moment we were marooned on it, unable to leave it for another circle.

(She said she also had the feeling the quality of this material had something to do with psychological time, yet in a way that had nothing to do with gaining time. She felt Seth would discuss this after break. She sat down during part of her delivery at Seth’s bidding, so that I wouldn’t miss any of the material. Also, her broadly smiling face felt different than usual to her; Jane said she really felt Seth’s emotions during this delivery, and added that Seth thought he was being smart.

(She said her fingers felt a little fatter, but when we examined them we could see no difference. The feeling was predominant in her right hand and index finger especially. Jane had a let-down feeling during this break when she was able to relax, and said she needed the longer rest. Her voice was normal when she began dictating again. Resume at 10:43.)

I speak in terms of vertical and horizontal only to make things easier for you. As far as the immediately-previous material is concerned, I let Ruburt in on the vertical so to speak. There was on his part a direct experience of my emotional vitality.

(Once again Jane leaned over my desk to emphasize the material. Her delivery was very deliberate and careful.)

(Break at 11:07. Jane tapped on my desk to make emphasis for the last line of her delivery. She was dissociated as usual. She said that the last two monologues found her way out; she did not remember pacing, smoking, sipping drinks, etc. She reported that just as her delivery ended, she had another mental picture. This time she saw herself in the enlarged kitchen, looking out of a horizontal-type window at the river.

(She went on to explain that she saw the back of her own figure as it stood before the window; she was Seth, she said, looking at her. I remarked that this session had certainly been rather active. Jane resumed dictating in a normal voice at 11:15.)

I am making up in value on another scale entirely for the last time. It is very possible that you both may need a rest now and then, and if so you will get it. But for quite a while it will not involve missing sessions but shortening them. Right now you are both doing extremely well. Ruburt, incidentally, was right. I had intended giving you a week off after your first thirty sessions. However you didn’t ask for them, and you didn’t seem to need a vacation, so I took advantage of it.

At one time she was in a subordinate position to you, Joseph, and without knowing why she would have been very domineering if you were a tenant. In the gallery relationship Ruburt is tacitly above her in the hierarchy and there is no difficulty. As friends a relationship would be excellent, as she would benefit very much, and you would both benefit by the help that you would be able to give her.

She worked on one of your farms in Denmark. She was, if you’ll excuse the expression, no beauty, and at the time you were not one to look for spiritual values in your women. She resented this very much. She also resented your son.

(“And who was that?”)

Ruburt was your son, as you well know. And he was a painter, so that the art gallery is an ironic place for Ruburt and this woman to meet.

There are also some rather hilarious incidents involved. As when you, old reprobate, took over your son’s mistresses when you got the chance; but you did not get the chance too often. There was also the case of taking some rent out through flesh when the cash was not forthcoming.

(I laughed. Seth-Jane was also quite amused. Seth has often referred to my life in Denmark in the 1600’s as being one of the flesh, and has said that his own was not much better. The material on the preceding page is about as definite as he has yet been on what actually transpired there. He has also stated that he will have much fun with Jane and me as he reveals those existences to us. This seems to be a case in point.)

If your prefer we will end the session. Otherwise take a brief break. And may I congratulate you in a backhanded fashion for having a full session this evening. Triev was a nice place.

(“How big was it?”

5,000 approximately. Actually it was between 5,000 and 15,000—no more than 15,000. Do you want to end the session?

(End at 11:44. Jane was dissociated as usual. (But as it developed the surprises for the evening were not yet over. No sooner had the session ended than I noticed that my hands felt “fat.” This is the feeling Jane has mentioned so often. I found myself rubbing my hands together, subjectively aware of a swollen feeling in them as we talked after the session. The sensation began in both index fingers, then spread across the knuckles, down into the fingers, and into the palms. When I made fists there was a stretching and thick feeling in them. They felt alien. It was not painful in any way, merely a most intriguing feeling of engorgement. My index fingers especially appeared to be larger. I wear a ring on the fourth finger of my left hand, but unfortunately did not think to see if I could remove it.