“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Well, I certainly would not want Ruburt throwing furniture at me. You understand of course that I am speaking of mock terror. When Ruburt’s resentment finally flares, that is no time for me to be around.

You are quite right. The solution hit upon is an excellent one, and I had nothing to do with it, having decided that I was much safer if I left such decisions to you from now on. All joking aside, this latest idea should really be an excellent one, and I would have suggested it myself except that I could not get through to Ruburt. He has felt guilty over the thought of taking any space from you, and the guilt made him feel resentful.

I am quite pleased, you will benefit by this, and also from the other changes in your establishment that you have been considering, including a method of using the back room all year. Resentment had a lot to do with Ruburt’s banging around. Not resentment at you, Joseph, but resentment because he felt guilty for not being satisfied. If you intend to stay where you are for any amount of time, then you would do well to get the most out of your establishment, and the enlargement being contemplated would be very beneficial.

Incidentally, I share Ruburt’s annoyance with your fat neighbor across the way, and I will tell you some tales about him before I am finished.

I speak in terms of vertical and horizontal only to make things easier for you. As far as the immediately-previous material is concerned, I let Ruburt in on the vertical so to speak. There was on his part a direct experience of my emotional vitality.

Again this in no way implies an invasion of Ruburt by myself, but instead implies an extension on Ruburt’s part to make way for the experience. It is not a lessening of self but an extension of self, so that the self-awareness can include not only self but independent (you may call this other) self experience, to include a value that is usually lacking in your ordinary behavior patterns.

This value or quality is simply beyond the boundary of your camouflage (underline) existence. There is no camouflage yardstick by which it can be measured, and yet as Ruburt will certainly testify it is a startling, valid and memorable experience. I will bring this to the foreground now more often in our sessions, as it is most valuable. Like an ordinary psychological experience it cannot be measured on your terms, and yet makes a noticeable impression upon the individual involved.

I would like to make a brief note about Ruburt’s attempts with the pendulum.

For other matters a light stage of hypnosis is necessary at this time, and a very careful phrasing of questions. The pendulum is responsive to unconscious muscular speech and does give answers from the subconscious. We are involved in something much deeper. Ruburt’s subconscious on its own is simply not capable of arriving at the knowledge that you are getting in our sessions.

I am making up in value on another scale entirely for the last time. It is very possible that you both may need a rest now and then, and if so you will get it. But for quite a while it will not involve missing sessions but shortening them. Right now you are both doing extremely well. Ruburt, incidentally, was right. I had intended giving you a week off after your first thirty sessions. However you didn’t ask for them, and you didn’t seem to need a vacation, so I took advantage of it.

Ruburt in the past has been very sensitive as far as your work is concerned, and this year has seen some improvement. There is some need to be on guard but hardly any to be up in arms.

Incidentally it is possible that you and Ruburt and his friend at the art gallery and her husband may become good friends, but it would have been extremely inadvisable for you to have moved into her apartment. You both have known the woman before, and under unpleasant circumstances. As tenants you would have been extremely dissatisfied with her.

At one time she was in a subordinate position to you, Joseph, and without knowing why she would have been very domineering if you were a tenant. In the gallery relationship Ruburt is tacitly above her in the hierarchy and there is no difficulty. As friends a relationship would be excellent, as she would benefit very much, and you would both benefit by the help that you would be able to give her.

Ruburt was your son, as you well know. And he was a painter, so that the art gallery is an ironic place for Ruburt and this woman to meet.

All things in good time, and believe you me, we shall have some good times. Incidentally, Ruburt is not pregnant. Put this in the record or not as you choose.

The ordinary seasonal influx with chemical variations usual in her case, plus your mother’s phone call, the niece’s pregnancy, and with your help, brought upon the circumstances. Your help incidentally refers to your anger at the children. It raised Ruburt’s hidden hopes of a larger apartment and then dashed them, building up his resentment. You forget that Ruburt-Jane’s first impulse is to act. This is extremely important in his makeup. It is for this reason that the extended use of the back room, and even the work on the kitchen would be beneficial. Need I say that his corner in your room must be felt by him to be his own.