“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(A few days ago Jane and I had looked at another apartment, one much bigger than ours and also more expensive. She liked it but for some reason I thought it wise not to take it. It belongs to one of Jane’s coworkers at the art gallery. Personally, I would like our next move to be to our own place in the suburbs or the nearby country.

(At 8:45 Jane awoke from her nap feeling much refreshed. She asked me if she could share my studio with me and of course I agreed, having offered this arrangement some time ago. Her desk and books do not take up much room. Jane was so enthusiastic over this idea that she forgot to be nervous before the session began.

(And of course by now both of us felt better, being more used to our new schedule. As the session began Willy continued to doze peacefully on the divan. Jane paced at a normal rate, her eyes darkened as usual, and her voice grew slightly husky.)

(This reference concerns new tenants who have moved into the second-floor apartment of the house next door. Although our house is separated from it by quite an expanse of lawn, our new neighbor is quite obvious as he walks back and forth before his picture window in his undershirt. Jane considers this bad manners.)

(Break at 9:31. Jane was dissociated to a fair degree. By break time her delivery had become very deliberate, with quite a few pauses. Her voice was normal. The same conditions prevailed when she resumed at 9:36.)

(Break at 10:02. Jane reached the same degree of dissociation as she did during the first monologue. Her delivery was still quite deliberate, her voice quite soft. The same conditions prevailed when she resumed at 10:08.)

(Now Jane, as Seth, began a most entertaining performance. To this point Jane had been sober, quiet and dignified. Now she began to grin broadly. Often, to emphasize a point, she would lean over my desk, smiling. She appeared to be enjoying herself very much. Her eyes were very dark. The very tone of her voice changed to one of amusement. I have seen Jane display mirth in the sessions before, but this period of such feeling lasted far longer. Now she tapped on my desk.)

(Again Jane was leaning over my desk.

(A Kennedy rocker sat opposite my desk. Now Jane sat down there. She laughed. Her eyes were merry. She sipped at a small glass of wine as she dictated to me. It was one of the few times I had seen her sit down during a session.)

(Now Jane rose and began to pace about once again.)

(Break at 10:32. Jane was in her usual state of dissociation this time. See the 16th session for Seth’s dissertation on flying saucers and their dilemma of form.

(Jane said that during the above monologue she also had a mental image from Seth. It was of a series of circles reaching out from her. Our plane would be one circle; and at the moment we were marooned on it, unable to leave it for another circle.

(She said she also had the feeling the quality of this material had something to do with psychological time, yet in a way that had nothing to do with gaining time. She felt Seth would discuss this after break. She sat down during part of her delivery at Seth’s bidding, so that I wouldn’t miss any of the material. Also, her broadly smiling face felt different than usual to her; Jane said she really felt Seth’s emotions during this delivery, and added that Seth thought he was being smart.

(She said her fingers felt a little fatter, but when we examined them we could see no difference. The feeling was predominant in her right hand and index finger especially. Jane had a let-down feeling during this break when she was able to relax, and said she needed the longer rest. Her voice was normal when she began dictating again. Resume at 10:43.)

(Once again Jane leaned over my desk to emphasize the material. Her delivery was very deliberate and careful.)

(Here Jane laughed.)

(Break at 11:07. Jane tapped on my desk to make emphasis for the last line of her delivery. She was dissociated as usual. She said that the last two monologues found her way out; she did not remember pacing, smoking, sipping drinks, etc. She reported that just as her delivery ended, she had another mental picture. This time she saw herself in the enlarged kitchen, looking out of a horizontal-type window at the river.

(She went on to explain that she saw the back of her own figure as it stood before the window; she was Seth, she said, looking at her. I remarked that this session had certainly been rather active. Jane resumed dictating in a normal voice at 11:15.)

(Again Jane laughed.

(Again the smiling Jane tapped on my desk.)

(Again Jane sat down opposite my desk, in the Kennedy rocker. Grinning broadly, her eyes very dark, sipping at a glass of wine, she leaned forward to tap the desk.)

(Jane began to pace again.)

(I laughed. Seth-Jane was also quite amused. Seth has often referred to my life in Denmark in the 1600’s as being one of the flesh, and has said that his own was not much better. The material on the preceding page is about as definite as he has yet been on what actually transpired there. He has also stated that he will have much fun with Jane and me as he reveals those existences to us. This seems to be a case in point.)

(“I think so. I don’t want to but I guess we’d better. Jane is getting tired.”)

The ordinary seasonal influx with chemical variations usual in her case, plus your mother’s phone call, the niece’s pregnancy, and with your help, brought upon the circumstances. Your help incidentally refers to your anger at the children. It raised Ruburt’s hidden hopes of a larger apartment and then dashed them, building up his resentment. You forget that Ruburt-Jane’s first impulse is to act. This is extremely important in his makeup. It is for this reason that the extended use of the back room, and even the work on the kitchen would be beneficial. Need I say that his corner in your room must be felt by him to be his own.

(Jane laughed.)

(End at 11:44. Jane was dissociated as usual. (But as it developed the surprises for the evening were not yet over. No sooner had the session ended than I noticed that my hands felt “fat.” This is the feeling Jane has mentioned so often. I found myself rubbing my hands together, subjectively aware of a swollen feeling in them as we talked after the session. The sensation began in both index fingers, then spread across the knuckles, down into the fingers, and into the palms. When I made fists there was a stretching and thick feeling in them. They felt alien. It was not painful in any way, merely a most intriguing feeling of engorgement. My index fingers especially appeared to be larger. I wear a ring on the fourth finger of my left hand, but unfortunately did not think to see if I could remove it.

(The feeling lasted for a few minutes. And Jane, remarking that she had experienced the same thing at 10:30 break, then made the intuitive leap to connect her own episodes of hand phenomena with the feeling of bodily enlargement she had experienced on March 30. See page 309. Neither of us had made this connection before, but Jane now felt sure that her fat hands had been the forerunners of a fuller use of the seventh inner sense.