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(And of course by now both of us felt better, being more used to our new schedule. As the session began Willy continued to doze peacefully on the divan. Jane paced at a normal rate, her eyes darkened as usual, and her voice grew slightly husky.)

You are quite right. The solution hit upon is an excellent one, and I had nothing to do with it, having decided that I was much safer if I left such decisions to you from now on. All joking aside, this latest idea should really be an excellent one, and I would have suggested it myself except that I could not get through to Ruburt. He has felt guilty over the thought of taking any space from you, and the guilt made him feel resentful.

I am quite pleased, you will benefit by this, and also from the other changes in your establishment that you have been considering, including a method of using the back room all year. Resentment had a lot to do with Ruburt’s banging around. Not resentment at you, Joseph, but resentment because he felt guilty for not being satisfied. If you intend to stay where you are for any amount of time, then you would do well to get the most out of your establishment, and the enlargement being contemplated would be very beneficial.

(She said she also had the feeling the quality of this material had something to do with psychological time, yet in a way that had nothing to do with gaining time. She felt Seth would discuss this after break. She sat down during part of her delivery at Seth’s bidding, so that I wouldn’t miss any of the material. Also, her broadly smiling face felt different than usual to her; Jane said she really felt Seth’s emotions during this delivery, and added that Seth thought he was being smart.

(She said her fingers felt a little fatter, but when we examined them we could see no difference. The feeling was predominant in her right hand and index finger especially. Jane had a let-down feeling during this break when she was able to relax, and said she needed the longer rest. Her voice was normal when she began dictating again. Resume at 10:43.)

The ordinary seasonal influx with chemical variations usual in her case, plus your mother’s phone call, the niece’s pregnancy, and with your help, brought upon the circumstances. Your help incidentally refers to your anger at the children. It raised Ruburt’s hidden hopes of a larger apartment and then dashed them, building up his resentment. You forget that Ruburt-Jane’s first impulse is to act. This is extremely important in his makeup. It is for this reason that the extended use of the back room, and even the work on the kitchen would be beneficial. Need I say that his corner in your room must be felt by him to be his own.

(End at 11:44. Jane was dissociated as usual. (But as it developed the surprises for the evening were not yet over. No sooner had the session ended than I noticed that my hands felt “fat.” This is the feeling Jane has mentioned so often. I found myself rubbing my hands together, subjectively aware of a swollen feeling in them as we talked after the session. The sensation began in both index fingers, then spread across the knuckles, down into the fingers, and into the palms. When I made fists there was a stretching and thick feeling in them. They felt alien. It was not painful in any way, merely a most intriguing feeling of engorgement. My index fingers especially appeared to be larger. I wear a ring on the fourth finger of my left hand, but unfortunately did not think to see if I could remove it.

(The feeling lasted for a few minutes. And Jane, remarking that she had experienced the same thing at 10:30 break, then made the intuitive leap to connect her own episodes of hand phenomena with the feeling of bodily enlargement she had experienced on March 30. See page 309. Neither of us had made this connection before, but Jane now felt sure that her fat hands had been the forerunners of a fuller use of the seventh inner sense.