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SESSION 38

(Jane felt so “unalert” tonight that first she took a nap after supper, then went for a walk at 8:15. By 8:45 she said she had no idea of Seth’s material for tonight, and that this made her nervous. I thought she acted well, though she said she was tired. In fact, after the session she felt better than before it began.

I see that we are quite alone. The session should be quiet. I am pleased with your letter. I see that you have it out on the desk for me, as if it was an apple for the teacher. I’ll take some bite of it.

I do not intend to let Ruburt in on any of my plans or intentions, as far as demonstrations are concerned. It is much better all around if he be kept clear of such knowledge. The last session with your friend went off extremely well, and I hope that he follows my advice. If Ruburt had known what was in my mind, he would have been nervous and self-conscious.

The advice itself was important. Philip’s abilities along the lines of electronics have not been developed to near capacity, and it was for his own good that I mentioned them. Then also the demonstration boosted Ruburt’s confidence in these sessions. That is all I will say about the matter for now. It is entirely within my abilities to produce such a plum as your Psychic Society is reaching for.

At this point it would be difficult for Ruburt to know of the possibility of such a demonstration before any particular session. I am not ruling out for now any foreknowledge on Ruburt’s part.

You will, as I have said before, benefit through the quiet exercise of your inner senses. This cannot be stressed too strongly. Such use of the inner senses will also be of benefit to both of you in these sessions, and will add dimension to them in a manner with which you are as yet unfamiliar.

This is legitimate, but without the strange mixture of discipline and freedom already achieved in these sessions, such awareness would not be possible at all, and certainly this is something you will have to work at. It is not instantaneous by any means.

I may make this a short session, since Ruburt is somewhat indisposed, and after all I am not that much of a taskmaster. But if I do make it a brief session, then I will have you exercise your abilities with the ESP cards until the ordinary ending of the session. So you will not get off scot-free.

Only in this case the dramatization provides its own actors. I am going to leave further discussion of this sense until some later session, when after additional material you will be able to understand it more thoroughly. And again remember that these senses, these inner senses, operate as a whole, and that at least to some degree the divisions between them are somewhat arbitrary on my part, and are made for the sake of simplicity.

I am mentioning this material in the same session with the fifth inner sense so that you will finally understand that use of the fifth inner sense is not actually as strange as you may have thought it to be.

(Break at 10:27. Jane was dissociated as usual. She said that she now felt much better but that it was up to her, she could end the session whenever she wanted to. Seth’s reference to open windows came because Jane had opened a window during last break when the room got stuffy from cigarette smoke. Resume at 10:35.)

And now I am going to give you an unheard of bonus, and close the session a trifle earlier, since Ruburt has been indisposed, and yet did not refuse to hold the session. Also because I got through the material I wanted to give you already. However, you know me, and I will make up the small difference in time. The material itself this evening was rather complex and Ruburt did allow it to come through, for which I shall give him the proverbial gold star.

I enjoyed the session myself very much, and am pleased that we could get this material through now. I had thought earlier that you would not be ready for it until a later time. I do hate as always to leave you—

Since I am leaving you a bit earlier, perhaps I will drop around for a short time before our next session.

(End at 11:00. Jane was dissociated as usual. She said that by now she felt much better than when she began the session, and that ordinarily she would have felt worse, considering all the walking she had been doing, etc.)

(Re Jane’s sensation. This material is included here because it is dealt with briefly by Seth in the following session, the 39th.

(The 39th Session, March 30/64, Monday, found us both very tired, so tired that we did not actually want to hold it. Our routine had been changed by my taking a part-time job which necessitated our rising at an earlier hour. Since I paint in the afternoons, and Jane works out at her job, by nine at night we have already put in a full day. In addition, we had been invited out for supper.

(We were back home by 8 PM; at 8:15 Jane lay down for half an hour, in preparation for the session, while I prepared papers for the notes I would be taking, and read over some previous material from Seth.

(Jane told me that upon slowly coming awake from her nap, and while she was listening to me move about the living room setting up the desk and my pad, etc., for the session, she had the most peculiar feeling of “growing larger.” The first laughing phrase she used was that she felt as though she was as big as an elephant.