“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This naturally is an answer again to Ruburt’s constant questioning. Sometimes, without your confidence, Joseph, I would certainly have a difficult time trying to get through to Ruburt. He is however under a considerable strain, as undoubtedly he has told you. The ego rears its head, in this case a rather attractive head, and the ego makes its protests.

I have mentioned before that there is no invasion of any kind in these sessions. Ruburt merely allowed himself to recognize my existence. Obviously, I exist whether he recognizes me or not. Nor, and this is strictly for the record, since I know that you both understand this, nor am I any so-called spirit.

He knows that his particular abilities are very well developed on a subconscious level, and actually fears that they might carry him away. Yet the intuitive qualities have made him a poet, and have always represented a strong and not weak part of his personality. They are actually well balanced in that they are not likely to sweep him off in any one direction willy-nilly, but could allow him a steady progression into various levels of direct experience.

You however are not so afraid of your own abilities. I am speaking now of psychic abilities and the reason is again personal, since you have been aware of them in a somewhat different manner. You appear to others as dependable, responsible and disciplined. Ruburt, with a different appearance and with different personal background, particularly involving his mother, has been fearful of displaying characteristics that he would consider emotional because the emotional is such a part of his personality, and there has been a distrust here of the strong parts of his personality.

Once the session has begun he is confident. For this small favor I thank him. I do however understand the problem. You may ask me what you wish.

I believe that it will. Confidence should increase with each session. I have no control over exterior circumstances that affect you, however. Ruburt naturally can learn and is learning to control his responses to such conditions, and incidentally this week he has made a few strides as far as the quiet times he has spent in using psychological time.

I am giving you data in my own way, somewhat conservatively compared with what you might want, rather than risk any more distortions than absolutely necessary. But we will progress and as a rule I prefer that Ruburt does not know many of my intentions, as he did not know during the incidents of telepathy with your John-Philip, since I do not want him to set up guards in advance.

Always with Ruburt’s permission, and for that matter indirectly with your permission, for if Ruburt sensed you were against such a circumstance he would not give permission. There is here a gestalt and a delicate balance among us.

Ruburt received the information and also ignored it. Ruburt also received information which he distorted about the Kennedy assassination. If you will both practice correct use of psychological time you will greatly aid such inner data.

Your personality will also grow through such contacts. I hesitate to point this out, or rather Ruburt is hesitating about letting me point this out, but your present father’s personality would not have been half as hampered had he allowed it such contact. You do not have to fear heredity here of course, but rather examples received from him when you were very young.

(Here Seth referred to Bill Macdonnel. Bill is a schoolteacher in his mid-twenties, and one of our friends who has known about these sessions from the beginning. He has read much of the material, and participated in the seance we tried. He has quite often expressed a desire to witness a session. In past sessions Seth has given Bill the name of his entity, Mark, and answered for Bill several questions that we relayed. And of course we have been thinking lately that Bill would be an obvious choice for a witness.

(Jane also received a thought concept from Seth concerning his method of thinking. It was brief, but to the effect that if he were with a roomful of people he would not confront each one in turn but “experience” them altogether, using his inner senses to appreciate as a whole all the personalities and emotions about him.

(Note that Jane wrote this poem on Wednesday, November 20th. The president was assassinated on Friday, November 22nd. His murderer was in turn a victim. Jane said the reference to suicide doesn’t fit Ruby, murderer of the president’s assassin, unless he in turn dies by his own hand.

One day he’ll find his features changed

And he’ll never claw it off

All the facts that he lives by

From that one fact that he ignores—

Till he seeks death at his own hands.