“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(By 8:50 Jane felt definite stirrings from Seth, which pleased her because she didn’t have to wonder about how she would do this evening. I had the board set up, ready for the opening of the session. But at 8:55 Jane surprised me by beginning to dictate. And so again we did not use the board to open a session. Jane began to pace rather rapidly.)

As with all inner data, such an experience would be much more vivid than our present procedure. It would involve however the utilization of most, if not all, inner senses, operating as a whole cognizance field. Do you have that? Operating as a whole cognizance field.

There must of necessity be in the beginning a distortion, but this comes because of the give and take between us. If our communications involved, or if any such communications involved invasion, there would be no distortion because the individual so invaded would be blotted out. And this is not possible.

(We discussed Seth’s confirmation of Jane’s feeling about concept-essences. As break ended I was asking Jane if it would be possible for her, when her ability to receive these concepts was more developed, to then write out what the concept consisted of. Resume at 9:32.)

This experience alone with me will yield financial benefits, but not because you would naturally like it to be so, but because you are expanding, and for some other allied causes. As far as parents are concerned, face it. You were saddled with rather troublesome ones, and for reasons which I will go into sometime later; but not involving guilt of any sort.

That remark about being broke is undistorted, but it depends upon your ability to assimilate this material, and particularly the personal material, thoroughly; that is, mostly emotionally and subconsciously as well as intellectually. I am sorry I did not realize to what extent some of this problem weighed you down, or I would have covered it much earlier.

Your reactions the other night, Joseph, had to do with two things; this sense of unjustified inferiority with your own ability to deal with the outside world, hence your physical immobility and back spasm; and with a superficial, rationalizing and false protective measure that operates intellectually in your case, making you think that outside conditions are so stupid that you refuse to do anything to alleviate them, feeling that the situation is so ridiculous that nothing you could do would change it. This is a rationalization to cover up the underlying, completely false sense of inferiority.

The combination of bedroom, workroom, living room and dining room is a bad one. If it were strictly necessary that would be one thing. But I suggest changes, although I have been leery of commenting upon such personal material. Ruburt has a basic though well-disguised need for privacy, as you do Joseph, though your need is not disguised. This is a need for privacy from the outside world that I speak of.

He operates very well until these basic needs are jeopardized. I will tell you the reasons later, but regardless of his flamboyance and seeming disregard, he needs space division of certain activities, and privacy from the outside world. He deals with the outside world in a very constructive manner, provided that a division is set up between him and it so that it cannot leak through. Some illusion of an entryway would be helpful in your main room. He is extremely modest in strange ways; that is. Perhaps strange to you, Joseph, I am not sure.

The illusion of an entryway would be desirable if possible. Ruburt holds and collects his psychic energy, and without knowing it does not like it to bleed outward. You are more consciously aware of your own similar needs.

Any arrangements you can think of that will satisfy some of these needs are worth it. If Ruburt had his way, something would shield you both when the door was opened from the hallway. He does not even like to partake of food in full viewpoint of others. The corner working space, any corner working space, pleases him, because it provides a place for the collection of psychic energy, and also serves as protection to his way of seeing things. It is too bad you cannot eat in your kitchen, but I believe something can be worked out with that arrangement as it exists.

One more word because of your discussion. The dangerous psychic explosions that I spoke of as being possible are very real possibilities, and involve even chemical changes in Ruburt’s own body; and I do suggest that you make some changes, either by returning to your regular workroom, Joseph, or by making the porch room into a temporary bedroom. Ruburt is unpredictable so I cannot predict what guise such an explosion might take, but it would be definitely dangerous and strong.