“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now, people who believe strongly in your organized religions are used to thinking in terms of an inner world. For this reason many of them have been recipients of inner data from others like myself. They are endowed with a readiness to listen, for one thing, and with a helpful faculty for suspending camouflage logical thinking. However, there are disadvantages involved which I do not like to encounter.

Ruburt will never sit down and deliver the material in that fashion. As I have said, the human being is more than the sum of its parts, and you two together are more than just the two of you, and you together provide the needed power for these communications to take place. But I do not want to go further into this right now. The procedure will remain the same for quite a while. Changes will not occur until you are ready and prepared for them, and the material itself will prepare you.

First of all personally: You, Joseph, have acquired an unjustified sense of inferiority as far as not only your dealings with your parents are concerned, but also concerning your dealings with the outside world; and even, for what unknown reason, with your dealings with your own talent.

I will go into this more deeply. Needless to say these problems have to do with you not at all, really, but with your present parents’ particular distorted way of looking at the outside world. It is basically inadequate and harmful to them, and when you judge yourself not against your own healthier ideas, but against their unhealthy attitudes, you are inadvertently judging yourself harshly.

Your reactions the other night, Joseph, had to do with two things; this sense of unjustified inferiority with your own ability to deal with the outside world, hence your physical immobility and back spasm; and with a superficial, rationalizing and false protective measure that operates intellectually in your case, making you think that outside conditions are so stupid that you refuse to do anything to alleviate them, feeling that the situation is so ridiculous that nothing you could do would change it. This is a rationalization to cover up the underlying, completely false sense of inferiority.

Had you been able to act in the physical world, you could have directed your anger where it belonged, against the stupidity, and because of your calm exterior you could have helped conquer it in a faster and more efficient manner than Ruburt did. He needed your strength, and when you leave it up to him to act as the so-called tower of strength, you overtax him to some extent.

Joseph, you have helped your parents in more ways than I can tell you now, and given them more comfort than they can consciously admit. They even to some degree resent the comfort, but this is not your fault. You saved your father’s sanity at one point, and no one else could have done it.

The combination of bedroom, workroom, living room and dining room is a bad one. If it were strictly necessary that would be one thing. But I suggest changes, although I have been leery of commenting upon such personal material. Ruburt has a basic though well-disguised need for privacy, as you do Joseph, though your need is not disguised. This is a need for privacy from the outside world that I speak of.

He operates very well until these basic needs are jeopardized. I will tell you the reasons later, but regardless of his flamboyance and seeming disregard, he needs space division of certain activities, and privacy from the outside world. He deals with the outside world in a very constructive manner, provided that a division is set up between him and it so that it cannot leak through. Some illusion of an entryway would be helpful in your main room. He is extremely modest in strange ways; that is. Perhaps strange to you, Joseph, I am not sure.