“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

As with all inner data, such an experience would be much more vivid than our present procedure. It would involve however the utilization of most, if not all, inner senses, operating as a whole cognizance field. Do you have that? Operating as a whole cognizance field.

Others less perfectionist than myself are content with more distortion. I am not. Ruburt’s Idea Construction was rather amazing. The inner senses provided him with much, but nevertheless the ideas contained represented an achievement of the conscious mind. I was drawn by this to realize that you were ready for me.

First of all personally: You, Joseph, have acquired an unjustified sense of inferiority as far as not only your dealings with your parents are concerned, but also concerning your dealings with the outside world; and even, for what unknown reason, with your dealings with your own talent.

Your reactions the other night, Joseph, had to do with two things; this sense of unjustified inferiority with your own ability to deal with the outside world, hence your physical immobility and back spasm; and with a superficial, rationalizing and false protective measure that operates intellectually in your case, making you think that outside conditions are so stupid that you refuse to do anything to alleviate them, feeling that the situation is so ridiculous that nothing you could do would change it. This is a rationalization to cover up the underlying, completely false sense of inferiority.

On the other hand he can use the experience, and nothing is lost to any great degree. However, this unjustified sense of inferiority should be conquered to some large extent, now that you realize that what you feel as your parents’ disapproval of you is not based upon any inferiority.

If you do not realize this emotionally then you tend to immobilize yourself, as you did the other night, when identifying your neighbor with your mother. There is no basic or real reason for any sense of inferiority on your part; and you must, Joseph, rise above this because it is disabling.

Now, it is true that Ruburt possesses strong psychic energy, as you do. But your unjustified sense of inferiority has held you back to some degree, though I believe that this is lessening now. I am sure it is lessening. In any case Ruburt’s psychic energy becomes at times undisciplined. For reasons that I will consider later he should not feel pent in.

As you know the seasons are important to Ruburt. The combination of late winter and a pent-up emotional reaction to the room situation should be avoided if possible. He, Ruburt, has more psychic power than he knows, and an uncluttered feeling is important. He has an inner sense of order which may not be apparent, and a strong feeling for what he considers sacred or private functions.