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Your reactions the other night, Joseph, had to do with two things; this sense of unjustified inferiority with your own ability to deal with the outside world, hence your physical immobility and back spasm; and with a superficial, rationalizing and false protective measure that operates intellectually in your case, making you think that outside conditions are so stupid that you refuse to do anything to alleviate them, feeling that the situation is so ridiculous that nothing you could do would change it. This is a rationalization to cover up the underlying, completely false sense of inferiority.

As you know the seasons are important to Ruburt. The combination of late winter and a pent-up emotional reaction to the room situation should be avoided if possible. He, Ruburt, has more psychic power than he knows, and an uncluttered feeling is important. He has an inner sense of order which may not be apparent, and a strong feeling for what he considers sacred or private functions.