“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Your reactions the other night, Joseph, had to do with two things; this sense of unjustified inferiority with your own ability to deal with the outside world, hence your physical immobility and back spasm; and with a superficial, rationalizing and false protective measure that operates intellectually in your case, making you think that outside conditions are so stupid that you refuse to do anything to alleviate them, feeling that the situation is so ridiculous that nothing you could do would change it. This is a rationalization to cover up the underlying, completely false sense of inferiority.

Any arrangements you can think of that will satisfy some of these needs are worth it. If Ruburt had his way, something would shield you both when the door was opened from the hallway. He does not even like to partake of food in full viewpoint of others. The corner working space, any corner working space, pleases him, because it provides a place for the collection of psychic energy, and also serves as protection to his way of seeing things. It is too bad you cannot eat in your kitchen, but I believe something can be worked out with that arrangement as it exists.