“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

I cannot go further into this now because I have not given you the principles involved as yet. What we will have when this happens is a gestalt, with no lessening of your individualities at all, but a merging that will bring greater abilities.

Your reactions the other night, Joseph, had to do with two things; this sense of unjustified inferiority with your own ability to deal with the outside world, hence your physical immobility and back spasm; and with a superficial, rationalizing and false protective measure that operates intellectually in your case, making you think that outside conditions are so stupid that you refuse to do anything to alleviate them, feeling that the situation is so ridiculous that nothing you could do would change it. This is a rationalization to cover up the underlying, completely false sense of inferiority.

Had you been able to act in the physical world, you could have directed your anger where it belonged, against the stupidity, and because of your calm exterior you could have helped conquer it in a faster and more efficient manner than Ruburt did. He needed your strength, and when you leave it up to him to act as the so-called tower of strength, you overtax him to some extent.

One more word because of your discussion. The dangerous psychic explosions that I spoke of as being possible are very real possibilities, and involve even chemical changes in Ruburt’s own body; and I do suggest that you make some changes, either by returning to your regular workroom, Joseph, or by making the porch room into a temporary bedroom. Ruburt is unpredictable so I cannot predict what guise such an explosion might take, but it would be definitely dangerous and strong.