“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

This ability is also growing on your part, Joseph, and with you I hope it will involve what you are pleased to call visionary data. We are still involved with translations, however. You, Joseph, translate communications into visual form. The time will come at a much later date when you will allow such material entry into your conscious state directly—that is, without the need to project it visually, since here a certain amount of distortion is almost always present.

When you are tired we will break, or you may move about the room, Joseph. Are you comfortable?

Your sensation the other night Joseph is an early, beginning stage of such development, as are Ruburt’s concept-essences. You will be experiencing inner data full blast, so to speak, and so vividly that it will be its own evidence. And I do mean evidence which will fail to convince no intelligent man.

You, Joseph, were necessary, but we had to have this particular sort of intuitive intellect that could also deal expertly with words before we could actually begin; and it took Ruburt a long time to achieve this state because his conscious problems, and family relations and preoccupation with them, held him back.

First of all personally: You, Joseph, have acquired an unjustified sense of inferiority as far as not only your dealings with your parents are concerned, but also concerning your dealings with the outside world; and even, for what unknown reason, with your dealings with your own talent.

Your reactions the other night, Joseph, had to do with two things; this sense of unjustified inferiority with your own ability to deal with the outside world, hence your physical immobility and back spasm; and with a superficial, rationalizing and false protective measure that operates intellectually in your case, making you think that outside conditions are so stupid that you refuse to do anything to alleviate them, feeling that the situation is so ridiculous that nothing you could do would change it. This is a rationalization to cover up the underlying, completely false sense of inferiority.

If you do not realize this emotionally then you tend to immobilize yourself, as you did the other night, when identifying your neighbor with your mother. There is no basic or real reason for any sense of inferiority on your part; and you must, Joseph, rise above this because it is disabling.

I can see that we will never cover the material I had planned for tonight, but it is more important that I get these ideas across to Joseph; and in so doing I am afraid I am wearing Ruburt out, in a way that I will explain at a later date.

Joseph, you have helped your parents in more ways than I can tell you now, and given them more comfort than they can consciously admit. They even to some degree resent the comfort, but this is not your fault. You saved your father’s sanity at one point, and no one else could have done it.

The combination of bedroom, workroom, living room and dining room is a bad one. If it were strictly necessary that would be one thing. But I suggest changes, although I have been leery of commenting upon such personal material. Ruburt has a basic though well-disguised need for privacy, as you do Joseph, though your need is not disguised. This is a need for privacy from the outside world that I speak of.

He operates very well until these basic needs are jeopardized. I will tell you the reasons later, but regardless of his flamboyance and seeming disregard, he needs space division of certain activities, and privacy from the outside world. He deals with the outside world in a very constructive manner, provided that a division is set up between him and it so that it cannot leak through. Some illusion of an entryway would be helpful in your main room. He is extremely modest in strange ways; that is. Perhaps strange to you, Joseph, I am not sure.

His needs that I have spoken of are really fears, which is why I took so much time to discuss them. He is unpredictable in that he is temperamentally good-natured, but you never know when the rocks will fly, and neither does he. Added to this is his strong domestic feelings now as a woman; and this, my dear Joseph, explains the incredible amount of furniture movings in which you have been involved.

And now most devoted friends, a fond good evening. I will always help you to the best of my ability, and as far as I know I will be accessible for your present lifetimes. And dear Joseph, if you whacked me many times, I got my blows in too. And I made Ruburt one lovely wife—so there, my lovelies.

One more word because of your discussion. The dangerous psychic explosions that I spoke of as being possible are very real possibilities, and involve even chemical changes in Ruburt’s own body; and I do suggest that you make some changes, either by returning to your regular workroom, Joseph, or by making the porch room into a temporary bedroom. Ruburt is unpredictable so I cannot predict what guise such an explosion might take, but it would be definitely dangerous and strong.

Something which you have forgotten makes you uncomfortable at Christmas time, Joseph, and Ruburt becomes uncomfortable in late winter if the space situation is not comfortable to him, so that your periods of psychic discomfort somewhat overlap. That is why both of you should be made as comfortable as possible. You, Joseph, have come through the winter in excellent condition, considering last winter.