“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(By 8:50 Jane felt definite stirrings from Seth, which pleased her because she didn’t have to wonder about how she would do this evening. I had the board set up, ready for the opening of the session. But at 8:55 Jane surprised me by beginning to dictate. And so again we did not use the board to open a session. Jane began to pace rather rapidly.)

It was in the way and he kept waiting for the exact most favorable moment to dispense with it and speak for me, so that he actually became anxious. It was a necessity for you both in the beginning, however, and do not let it go—that is, do not return it. It has sentimental value, and for me.

As with all inner data, such an experience would be much more vivid than our present procedure. It would involve however the utilization of most, if not all, inner senses, operating as a whole cognizance field. Do you have that? Operating as a whole cognizance field.

As for another advancement you have made, beside dispensing with the material board—and this advancement has to do with the so-called flashes that Ruburt has received between sessions—he has achieved a state in which he can receive inner data from me more readily. But beyond this he is now able in some small way to contact me. That is, I have contacted you in the past, and now you are gaining the ability to contact me, and this is a step forward on your part.

In the beginning, for example, there is always a distortion of material by the person who receives it, at least on the topmost subconscious level. So an individual whose personal prejudices are at a minimum is excellent. If for example Ruburt’s prejudices happen to lie along lines which do not contradict what I know to be true, then all the better, and there is much less resistance.

Now, people who believe strongly in your organized religions are used to thinking in terms of an inner world. For this reason many of them have been recipients of inner data from others like myself. They are endowed with a readiness to listen, for one thing, and with a helpful faculty for suspending camouflage logical thinking. However, there are disadvantages involved which I do not like to encounter.

Ruburt will never sit down and deliver the material in that fashion. As I have said, the human being is more than the sum of its parts, and you two together are more than just the two of you, and you together provide the needed power for these communications to take place. But I do not want to go further into this right now. The procedure will remain the same for quite a while. Changes will not occur until you are ready and prepared for them, and the material itself will prepare you.

Your sensation the other night Joseph is an early, beginning stage of such development, as are Ruburt’s concept-essences. You will be experiencing inner data full blast, so to speak, and so vividly that it will be its own evidence. And I do mean evidence which will fail to convince no intelligent man.

(Here Jane broke off her delivery to say to me, “My hands feel fatter than the devil.” She spoke as quickly as she could, without changing her voice. Later she confirmed my suspicion that it had been very difficult to do this in the middle of a monologue. Yet the revelation of Seth’s involvement with me produced such a startling and rapid phenomena on Jane’s part that she wanted to let me know when it happened. For some time after this she continued to rub and to examine her hands as she paced back and forth. Her voice remained strong.)

As a son you were helpful, considerate and kind. Your troubles with your present parents have absolutely nothing to do with you as a personality in any way. They involve something entirely different, problems that they themselves have not worked out in the past.

I will go into this more deeply. Needless to say these problems have to do with you not at all, really, but with your present parents’ particular distorted way of looking at the outside world. It is basically inadequate and harmful to them, and when you judge yourself not against your own healthier ideas, but against their unhealthy attitudes, you are inadvertently judging yourself harshly.

If you find yourself falling short, of illness, then by all means consider yourself healthy, and do not cry because you cannot see or measure up to, I should say down to, the same sick standards.

I do suggest a brief break. I want to go into this a little more tonight. Then I want to mention briefly Ruburt’s idea of my idea about the bed, and I want to at least mention the condensed time concept, and cover briefly something new, which is the self-conscious self behind the ego.

Your reactions the other night, Joseph, had to do with two things; this sense of unjustified inferiority with your own ability to deal with the outside world, hence your physical immobility and back spasm; and with a superficial, rationalizing and false protective measure that operates intellectually in your case, making you think that outside conditions are so stupid that you refuse to do anything to alleviate them, feeling that the situation is so ridiculous that nothing you could do would change it. This is a rationalization to cover up the underlying, completely false sense of inferiority.

In part, whatever disapproval they feel, and it is not nearly as great as you imagine it to be, is based upon jealousy in a large degree, and yet, conversely, you have given them strength, and even helped to justify them, in that underneath it all they do realize that despite their own shortcomings you have managed to achieve something.

You have done much for them, and you will be able to do more in direct proportion to your ability to understand that their judgment of you is based upon their own present false conceptions.

If you do not realize this emotionally then you tend to immobilize yourself, as you did the other night, when identifying your neighbor with your mother. There is no basic or real reason for any sense of inferiority on your part; and you must, Joseph, rise above this because it is disabling.

When you give in to it you do become immobilized to some degree, and therefore incapable of true dissociation. Then you cannot help them, and this to you then seems a further demonstration of inadequacy. The circle is vicious. I repeat: In all your past lives you dealt with the problems of both parenthood and childhood well, in relation to your own parents. This present trouble is a result of your parents’ inabilities and false conceptions, and of your own over-conscientiousness resulting from your Denmark life.

I can see that we will never cover the material I had planned for tonight, but it is more important that I get these ideas across to Joseph; and in so doing I am afraid I am wearing Ruburt out, in a way that I will explain at a later date.

But you are to feel free from any rebuffs, realizing that the present personality of your father is choosing to face many hurdles at once. And in this life his failings are more apparent simply because they represent old leftover problem remnants; and you have had a lot to do with your father’s ability to face these problems all at once, so to speak.

Now, it is true that Ruburt possesses strong psychic energy, as you do. But your unjustified sense of inferiority has held you back to some degree, though I believe that this is lessening now. I am sure it is lessening. In any case Ruburt’s psychic energy becomes at times undisciplined. For reasons that I will consider later he should not feel pent in.

The combination of bedroom, workroom, living room and dining room is a bad one. If it were strictly necessary that would be one thing. But I suggest changes, although I have been leery of commenting upon such personal material. Ruburt has a basic though well-disguised need for privacy, as you do Joseph, though your need is not disguised. This is a need for privacy from the outside world that I speak of.

(Break at 11:00. Jane said she felt Seth “pushed through” a lot of important material, and in so doing used up a lot of her energy in a way she doesn’t yet understand. She feels exhausted, yet is all right as soon as Seth begins again. During this monologue she was not conscious of her surroundings. Jane resumed dictating at 11:02.)

Ruburt is flexible to a large degree, but beneath there are prerequisites that he needs. Many of his Florida contortions had to do with a simple need, basic for him, having to do with space, orderliness and privacy. He does not speak of these as you do, but nevertheless woe if you ignore them, because he will react in an emotional explosion at best and a psychic explosion at worst.

I am sorry that we could not cover more material but this personal data is important. Do you want to break or end the session?

One more word because of your discussion. The dangerous psychic explosions that I spoke of as being possible are very real possibilities, and involve even chemical changes in Ruburt’s own body; and I do suggest that you make some changes, either by returning to your regular workroom, Joseph, or by making the porch room into a temporary bedroom. Ruburt is unpredictable so I cannot predict what guise such an explosion might take, but it would be definitely dangerous and strong.

I do not want Ruburt’s psychic energies soaked up in trying to fight these needs, however. We need all of your psychic energies for our work, and you will learn in the future to use these energies well, and also to draw upon energies from the basic vitality.