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(Already Jane’s eyes had their dark inward look. She had begun to pace rather rapidly. Pausing before my desk, she drew her hands across the blotter there; her palms left two wet tracks. Her voice was normal.)

It is as if I was operating on one of many channels, and I am still in the process of teaching you to operate the other dials. When you grow in proficiency, and I certainly hope you will, then much greater dimension will be given to these sessions, with your help. You are getting now something that corresponds to one thin wispy signal, or one tinny distant sound, or one clouded foggy image. In the future as I said the dimension will grow. Your own inner senses will add greater reality than you can imagine at this point.

(Break at 9:26. Jane’s voice had been normal during this monologue, nor did it change during the balance of the session. Her hands now felt very cool; she said that briefly they had felt heavy or fat again, but the feeling disappeared along with her nervousness. Her pacing was quite fast however when she began dictating again. Resume at 9:29.)

In Denmark, you yourself were ignorant of this clock time. To people in earlier centuries clock time was unimportant; and from here in I will distinguish between physical time, which has to do with day and night, with the tides and seasons, and clock time with which I will deal only when absolutely necessary.

Psychological time fits into physical time with little trouble. Originally this enabled man in many ways to live in the inner and the outer world with relative ease. Psychological time can be transposed onto physical time, but psychological time cannot flow unhampered or with any freedom through days chopped up into so many clock divisions. The clock time idea was invented by the conscious ego of man for many various reasons, with fear in the foreground.

Physical time, or that is clock time, was invented by man’s ego to protect the ego itself, because of the mistaken conception of dual existence—that is, because man felt that a predictable conscious self did the thinking and the moving, and an unpredictable almost automatic self did the breathing and dreaming. He set up boundaries to protect the predictable self from what he considered the unpredictable self, and ended up by cutting the whole self in half.

I suggest a brief break, and after it we will touch upon some of the reasons for this fear which man felt, and feels, for the whole portion of his being. Because actually it is the apparent difference within himself that he fears, and he has projected this fear upon the part of himself he considered less capable of fighting back. And this, dear friends, was a big mistake, because the part of him that he denies fights back with more power than he knows.

You see, to me these things are closely associated and connected in an overall concept pattern, and yet I must give them to you one at a time, and take pages to make the connection clear. One of mankind’s weaknesses has always been his impatience and his preoccupation with camouflage patterns on his plane. It is this impatience that made him attempt to know himself by examining the outside world, rather than exploring what was within himself.

In prehistoric times mankind evolved the ego and self-consciousness to help him deal with the camouflage patterns that he had created. This is no contradiction, and will be explained later. He did the job so well that even when he had things under control he was not satisfied. He developed at a lopsided level. He used himself as a tool to dissect himself. The inside senses led him to a reality he could not manipulate as easily as he could a camouflage world, and he feared what he thought of as a loss of mastery.

You had better stand up for a moment and move around. That is what you are supposed to do in these frequent breaks from the material. There is no reason why you cannot stand. There are articles of furniture upon which you can rest your pad. Surely I should not have to remind you of the practicality of camouflage patterns, with which I am no longer concerned. If I were as dependent upon them as you are, I would use them better. Indeed, I did when I was. Please do get comfortable.

The circumstances at your end just happened to be right for something like this to occur. It was like a sudden opening of a door. You didn’t know how to open it any further, and if I may say so, you didn’t even know how to close it. And yet you would not even have admitted the experience consciously not too long ago, as something like it occurred at an earlier date and consciously you forgot it.

This time however there was a remembrance of panic, but that is all. Actually you opened the door out of desire, stimulated by our sessions and out of curiosity, but you were still scared to death.

What you experienced is difficult to explain until we have a thorough discussion of the inner senses, however I will give you a somewhat superficial explanation for now. What you experienced was an onrush, or should I say onslaught, of data in its pure form, rushing through the inner senses like a wind in kaleidoscope, because you did not know how to control or disentangle the data.

For this reason you attempted a rather hilarious feat. You tried to switch over and pick up inside data with the outside senses, and then project this inward. For a beginner it was quite a performance. You were attempting the impossible, and I will go into this also more thoroughly at a later time when you can understand the explanation a little better.

It was a defect on the receiving end that caused fear on your part. I will say this next sentence, and sometime later it will become more clear. You felt sound. This was faithful to the inner senses. But because you did not hear sound with your ears, you panicked and formed the image of mouths that could not speak. This was a projection of your inability and should not be taken as any condition of helplessness existing in the inner world, as I am afraid you interpreted the image.

Your feeling of a door or funnel is quite legitimate, however, and if you felt attacked because of the onrush of data that seemed to crash down upon you, it was only because of your lack of ability to control the volume, so to speak; although in this case such an imaginary knob would control much more.

You switched yourself off automatically because the experience frightened you, but the whole affair was beneficial because it gave you some firsthand experience of pure inner sensory data. It was unfortunate that it was so uncontrolled, but I’m afraid this is to be expected in the beginning. If possible try to relax if this occurs again, and the data will slow itself up.

(Break at 11:01. Seth’s material had reminded Jane that several times in the past she’d had the experience of hearing music when none was to be heard—that is, no radios were playing within range, etc. Jane has very acute hearing, but was still sure the music came from within. And usually she would realize that it had been “playing” for some time as she went about her duties before she became aware of it consciously. Jane resumed at 11:07.)

Ruburt’s forgotten-till-now experience with music was legitimate. Actually it reoccurred many times, I believe, and was always discarded by the conscious mind. Again, this involves feeling sound. That is all I will say for the moment, but it is a valuable foretaste.

Psychological time adds duration. You will find something else here. From the framework of psychological time you will see that clock time is as dreamlike and fleeting as you once thought inner time was. And you will discover that inner time is as much a reality as you once thought outer time was. You will discover your whole selves in other worlds, peeping inward and outward at the same time, and finding that all time is one time, and that all divisions are illusion.

(Jane said that was all from Seth. I said good night aloud. We sat at the board and indicated good night with the pointer.