“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

In prehistoric times mankind evolved the ego and self-consciousness to help him deal with the camouflage patterns that he had created. This is no contradiction, and will be explained later. He did the job so well that even when he had things under control he was not satisfied. He developed at a lopsided level. He used himself as a tool to dissect himself. The inside senses led him to a reality he could not manipulate as easily as he could a camouflage world, and he feared what he thought of as a loss of mastery.

What you experienced is difficult to explain until we have a thorough discussion of the inner senses, however I will give you a somewhat superficial explanation for now. What you experienced was an onrush, or should I say onslaught, of data in its pure form, rushing through the inner senses like a wind in kaleidoscope, because you did not know how to control or disentangle the data.

Your feeling of a door or funnel is quite legitimate, however, and if you felt attacked because of the onrush of data that seemed to crash down upon you, it was only because of your lack of ability to control the volume, so to speak; although in this case such an imaginary knob would control much more.

If you will remember this, inner data will come through much more easily, and you will be able to control it. It is never of itself overpowering. There are abilities in which you can train yourself, in both recognition of data when it occurs, utilization, and control. This also implies to some degree utilization as far as duration is concerned. That is, within the framework of psychological time you can lengthen such experiences.

You can never force them to exist for a specified period of clock time, nor for that matter can you do that to a dream. Though this may sound impossible at this stage, nevertheless you can control such data when in a waking state better than you can control a dream. Here you learn to use certain parts of the consciousness for the purposes of the whole self, but I will discuss this at a later date.