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(Jane reports that as she delivers Seth’s messages now, she does not hear the words within before speaking them aloud; rather now she talks along without knowing consciously what she will say from one word to the next. It is a very strange feeling. The only time she will hear words within before speaking them aloud, is when Seth has paused during a delivery and is about to resume.

(By 8:45 this evening, Jane could feel Seth “pushing at her,” ready to begin. And at the end of the session three hours later, while in bed, she caught additional phrases from Seth but promptly shut them off. By then she was very tired.

(During this session Jane spoke for three hours in a voice somewhat louder and deeper than usual; and during this time she felt no strain, other than the accustomed tiredness coming at the end of a long day.

(Jane was already receiving Seth within, so she laid the board aside and began to pace and dictate, as usual.)

As far as Jane’s levitation dreams, I myself was her delighted but inept teacher. In the dream state she did beautifully. Awake she had leaden feet. There were also two other teachers, but I will go into these at a later date.

(By now Jane’s voice had reached the state it would maintain for the balance of the session; somewhat louder, a little sharper, a little lower.)

(Break at 9:43. During break Jane’s voice abruptly returned to its normal tone. She resumed dictating at 9:50.)

(By now, Jane’s voice had resumed its deeper tone.)

(Break at 10:25. After break Jane’s voice resumed its slightly deeper and louder tone. Resume at 10:30.)

The tree on Jane’s kitchen wall is very nice, and it is also significant as far as your opening up is concerned. I cannot say that Ruburt would go mad over a painting on a kitchen wall, or anything else on a kitchen wall, but then Jane is a different Ruburt all over again.

(Yesterday Jane remarked that she had always wanted a drawing done on our kitchen wall. The kitchen is very small, but on the spur of the moment I used a brush and black waterproof ink to do a quick sketch of a tree on a limited space next to the windows. It was much fun to do. The tree appears to have a floating quality on the light yellow wall, especially at night, and has added a new dimension to the room.)

(Mr. Clauss is an instructor in art at Elmira College. It was to his class that Jane spoke on censorship in art and writing—and also ran into “a Frank Watts in poet’s clothing,” as Seth called him, in the form of another guest speaker.

(“Seth, Jane has wanted to know what was going on here in the house during the time our dog Mischa died, and when the two cats also died.”)

(Jane had obtained both kittens from the janitor at the art gallery where she works. Both had the same mother although they came from successive litters.)

Ruburt, or I will say Jane now, strongly resented your mother, Joseph, on that Thanksgiving directly before the animal’s death. And rightly so, since the strong negative suggestions given by her actually represented a turning point, and not a good one. The suggestion acted upon you and Jane, as well as upon the dog.

(Break at 11:06. Resume with Jane dictating at 11:16.)

Your parents, unwittingly of course, can do you much harm. I use the name Jane now rather than Ruburt for the sake of convenience. Jane is dissociated to some degree as far as your parents are concerned. You can trust her intuition and judgment along these lines. In Florida she said often, whether you remember it or not, that they would not be as pleased to see you return as you supposed. At a later date I will go into her terrific demonstration at that occasion in Florida.

For your ego Joseph the unspoken but strong advice you gave Jane, who was carried away in Elmira at the radio station, this advice was excellent and saved you both much pain. However, she heeded it, therefore it helped you both. Had you heeded hers in Miami or even later in Sayre, you would have saved yourself what really can only be called an agonizing blow. If you are not completely exhausted then take a break and I will continue. If you are way down by tonight’s lecture you may call it a day.

It is true that because Ruburt is now a woman, and because Ruburt dislikes his own mother so vehemently, that some problems do arise between the two women. That is, Jane and Joseph’s mother. Nevertheless this can be handled. As for your life before this time Joseph, this is hardly the time to go into it. It was however relatively calm.