“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

SESSION 853, MAY 14, 1979
9:46 P.M. MONDAY

(Although this is a private session that Jane and I are filing separately from “regular” material, we’re also presenting it in Mass Events because of the many insights Seth offers into individual and mass events in general, and into our personal realities in particular. In fact, without those qualities of ours that Seth touches upon this evening, I doubt that the Seth books — indeed, even the sessions themselves — would exist. So in that sense this session contains more of those insights into the how and why of the Seth material that we’re always searching for. See my comments in Note 1 for sessions 840 and 841.

(The session really grew out of several insights that Jane herself has voiced since giving last Wednesday night’s book copy. Following several of those verbal comprehensions, she experienced very pleasant relaxation effects of the kind I described in the opening notes for the 829th session. “But right now I’m just waiting,” she said impatiently at 9:40, after we’d been ready for Seth to come through since 9:25. “Actually, I’m mad. Here I was all set to go earlier….” Then she amended her remarks: “It makes me mad because I feel like I’m in an odd in-between subjective state. It isn’t comfortable. I want to be Seth or myself — one thing or the other, maybe….”

I have given material on that before (but in private sessions). To some extent, Ruburt became afraid of his own creativity, and so did you. In Ruburt’s case the fear was greater, until it seemed sometimes that if he succeeded in his work he would do so at some peril: You might be put in an unpleasant light, or he might become a fanatic, displaying those despicable, feminine hysterical qualities.

(With much humor:) I hope this session benefits you both. End of session, and a fond good evening.

(10:35 P.M. “I didn’t know he was going to go into all of that,” Jane said, after I’d told her she’d given an excellent session. “Maybe that’s why I felt so uncomfortable before the session: Part of me knew Seth was going to talk about us. Now I feel exhausted. I could go right to bed, but I won’t….”

(She couldn’t really describe them now, Jane said, but she’d had “great, hilarious, emotional feelings” when she delivered the part of the session about my thinking that selling paintings made me a prostitute. “Some gargantuan feelings there, full of humor,” she added.

(She laughed. “You’re so strange. Here you won’t go to the marketplace, but you think of saving all of these private sessions for posterity, to give them to the world some day. You’re very close-mouthed: You don’t blab our personal business, but you’d do that…. Instead, I see us when I’m 80 and you’re 90, out in the back yard, burning it all.”

(Yet she easily agreed that this evening’s session, whether private or not, cast much light on the Seth material as a whole, adding depths of understanding and background information. And, incidentally, in spite of my feelings about the marketplace, I’ve sold a number of paintings over the years…. )