“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

(Jane’s impressions to Bette of a past life the class had received the previous week in Alpha: “You had seven children. Your last name was something like Masar.  There may be either a Y or an E at the end of it. Not the end of it. I received the impression of your absolute hatred of your husband that rushed through you at that time that had just evolved in terror. You shot him.”

Now over here we have great energy, and because I am aware of your conversations, strong power that is being withheld out of caution and fear. You have a strong core of energy tested too early and not under the best of circumstances, though at the time you may have believed so. You are much easier now, but at the time, there was an explosion of energy on your part that you did not understand, and you were afraid that in this explosion of energy you would go too far outward and there would be nothing left, so to speak, that you would get away from yourself and lose yourself beyond all hopes of recovery.

(To Davey.) Now here we have a too early blooming of abilities before the overall personality was able to handle them, and we also have a great contrast in attitude for we have on one hand the determination to show up all fraud, and on the other hand, the fear underneath that our own experiences could somehow be fraudulent. And, therefore, you could not trust yourself and found yourself unable to continue. The dilemma came, therefore, and you avoided the field of endeavor.

Now Ruburt did not know what he was going to speak about this evening and half of his talk in class is automatic, as you know, but it was no coincidence that he became involved in his talk of power and energy for you had a deep distrust of your own energy to sway people as a salesman (to Davey) as you had a distrust of your ability to sway people as a minister (to Joel) and as you also have the same feeling (to Davey), for what happens is this.

I am not finished with you, I was simply speaking in terms of one particular phenomena. I did not mean that others did not have strong abilities. These were simply examples of one case in point.

Now I will let you all take a break. I innocently said a break, meaning a Seth break, which means that I was not stepping in on our friend’s territory, which is simply an “in” joke around here. Now sometime I am simply going to keep Ruburt in trance during your break, and then I will circulate among you and add my comments to yours.

([Gert:] “During psy time I got a picture, I think of myself, as a man standing in a grassy area, like someone’s backyard, and a woman. There were three children. She carried one on her right hip and I would say about 18 months old, about a two year old and a five year old, and the girl had braids, and they were looped around, and she had a big apron on. I didn’t see her face, but I got the feeling that she was my wife and that I was not being very compassionate or understanding to her. My question is, was this me or was it something I was picking up?”)

It was in a life both in Sweden and Denmark. There were two lives. One in the 1500’s or late 1400’s and one in the 1700’s. One as quite a cosmopolitan around Oslo. None of that material, however, has any bearing now on the specific challenges on which you are working. The lives were relatively neutral. You were picking up, however, your own feelings at that time.

At the same time, however, you came into contact with merchants, quite unusual in this particular circumstance, coming up from Africa. This particular expedition was lost, and you divested the ship of its cargo with the help of the men on your ship, and of course without giving payment. Alae (spelled out), now that was the name of a particular type of cargo, perhaps algae, that was a part of the ships contents. There was also, however, some opium from Turkey. You made a killing on the opium in Holland. It is nearly impossible to find, for example, any proof or record of that transaction since you did not deal in contracts but relied upon your word of honor. In this case it meant taking the contents of the hold by force.