“Seth material” search engine (Jane Roberts)

Now over here we have great energy, and because I am aware of your conversations, strong power that is being withheld out of caution and fear. You have a strong core of energy tested too early and not under the best of circumstances, though at the time you may have believed so. You are much easier now, but at the time, there was an explosion of energy on your part that you did not understand, and you were afraid that in this explosion of energy you would go too far outward and there would be nothing left, so to speak, that you would get away from yourself and lose yourself beyond all hopes of recovery.

At the same time, however, you came into contact with merchants, quite unusual in this particular circumstance, coming up from Africa. This particular expedition was lost, and you divested the ship of its cargo with the help of the men on your ship, and of course without giving payment. Alae (spelled out), now that was the name of a particular type of cargo, perhaps algae, that was a part of the ships contents. There was also, however, some opium from Turkey. You made a killing on the opium in Holland. It is nearly impossible to find, for example, any proof or record of that transaction since you did not deal in contracts but relied upon your word of honor. In this case it meant taking the contents of the hold by force.